You drive me insane. Honestly, you do. But it's a good insane, so I guess I can forgive you. You're the most adorable person I know and your dimples are crazy cute. But even beneath that, you're just amazing. I don't even know. This is going to sound mega corny. But it's not like you'll ever see this, so I might as well risk sounding like a twat. I'll never admit any of this to you face to face because the thought of you not feeling the same scares the shit out of me. So here goes the most corny thing I'll ever say in my whole life.
You is amazing. No other words for it. I don't know where I'd be without you, but it wouldn't be a good place. You fixed me and made me better and gave me something to believe in when I had no one. You showed me that there are more things to life. When I was over everyone and everything and just wanted to give up, you were there. You stayed when everyone else left. You helped me when no one else would. You gave up all your time to make sure I was okay. And I'll never understand why you did, but I'm never going to question it. I love everything you've done for me. No one else has gone to the extents you have. No one else has bothered with me as much as you have. You've seen me at my absolute worst; which we both know isn't a pretty sight. But you stayed and never once left. And if you ever do leave, I don't know how I'll cope. I probably won't. Because who else is going to keep me together like you do? I'd do anything for you; anything you asked; anything you wanted. Just anything. But nothing will ever sum up to what you did for me.
I hate how you think you need to 'diet'. Are you fucking crazy? Dude. Look at yourself. There isn't one flaw to your appearance. And I'm not just saying that. I'm a brutally honest person so I'd tell you if you looked like shit. But you don't. You're stunning. You make every other girl in our grade look like some crazy witch lady. You're amazing and your diet pisses me off. If you get any thinner, you're going to make yourself sick. So cut that shit out or I'll force cupcakes down your throat. Nah, but I'd make you eat them somehow.
I love your hugs. Other people are so awkward with hugs and you're all, baaam and don't let go until I have to literally claw you off. And I love it. Our movie marathons are amazing, especially when we watch some crazy horror shit and I get cuddles 'cause you're scared. That makes my day.
And you get along with my family so well. Like, my family is fucking weird. But you're like, bestfriends with them all and you and Kitiah are like, tight and she's only three. And how you and my mum have weird cooking days and bake shit. It's really strange but nonetheless adorable.
And you make me laugh all the time. Even when I'm in the shittest mood. You're hilarious. You have the best sense of humor. Better than anyone else I know. You're just so funny. And you don't make sense half the time which is even more entertaining.
I love our plans, how we're going to go to London and set the Queen's guards on fire to see if they move. And then move to Alaska and have epic snow dogs because we're normal and stuff. And how we're gonna move everything in my room onto the roof of my house so that we stand out from every other boring house in my street. You're crazy, but it's amusing and I'd be so fucking bored without you.
So yeah. I just kinda love you a little bit a lot. Never ever ever never ever never ever never ever ever ever never change for anyone. Like, ever. And never leave. Never. Because I'll hunt you down and glue myself to you with clag glue. So, not a good idea, huh. Stay with me. I wouldn't be here without you.
Much love.
