Leaves -Joshler✔️

(21) Fly Away

A/N Okay do you get the chapter name hahaha because twenty one pilots and flying and ha I'm a comedic genius ((sorry))

//TYLER//

I hear faint sounds on and off and on and off. High pitch low pitch high pitch low pitch. Did I do it? Am I finally free?

I attempt to open my eyes, feeling the burden I thought was finally lifted off of my shoulder lay down once again. The burden settles in and crawls up to my brain, then down to my heart telling them that it's back. And that burden is living, breathing, and my heart beating.

I turn my attention back to the loud ups and downs of what I think are sirens. My eyelids aren't thick enough, letting the flashing blue and red light seep through.

It didn't work, and now I realize that someone must've saved me, and it sure as hell wasn't my parents because they rarely visit. Josh did this, why did he have to screw up the one thing that would finally get me peace and quiet?

I guess I just don't deserve to have peace.I'm worthless, I'm not even able to kill myself properly. What kind of sick joke is this?

I feel groggy and unable to open my eyes. I either cant, or fear is gluing them shut. I'm too scared to open my eyes and see whoever saved me, especially Josh. Oh, what I'd pay to have my eyes glued shut just hours prior so that I wouldn't have to see him cheating. 

I won't listen to his desperate pleas for forgiveness because he fucked up, and that's his doing. 

I feel the wheels of the stretcher move quickly against the pavement, then over the linoleum floor. The scent of dead skin and quarantine wings in the hospital is not so pleasant nor conventional, but I'll have to deal for the time being. 

The wheels glide smoothly across the tile, then stopping again. I'm then able to flutter my eyes open slightly, making sure to have them look as if they're still closed. I just need to see if Josh is here.

I open my eyes and see Josh looking at whatever is ahead of the stretcher, while holding my hand. I look down slightly at my wrists seeing that they're heavily bandaged.

I hear Josh murmur something, but I'm not sure what.

But all of these sudden and dissapointing realizations are making me tired, so why not take a short nap?

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//JOSH//

I jog through the hospital's hallways with my hands on the sides of Tyler's stretcher. Every so often, I look down at him, his eyes still closed.

Goddamnit Ty, I can't lose you.

We reach a certain point and they stop the stretcher, telling me that I cannot continue any farther. I sit down in an uncomfortable chair in a hallway. How many people have sat in this very chair, expecting the very worst for their loved ones? Probably too many to count. Im just one of those people to add to the never ending list. 

All I can do is twiddle my thumbs, since my phone is about to die any second. I fall into my thoughts, studying the square tile in front of me. Not much is happening in my head, except for a strange interest in the tile. My eyes are fixated on it, and I feel my thoughts leave. Just a break. 

most of my head feels empty, the only thing going through my head is Tyler's name, and the words "please be okay" scrolling over and over again. It feels like watching the credits to a movie that I cant turn off. 

But then I snap out of it, because I know that Ty will definitely not forgive me for cheating on him at a party while drunk. I wasn't acting anything like myself, no wonder I don't drink alcohol very often.

It's hard to imagine a life where Tyler isn't even in it anymore. Where would I be without his adorable giggle and his brown floofy hair? I won't have a place to live anymore either, since he will most likely be kicking me out. I guess I'll have to move. Again.

But not staying in his house is so insignificant compared to the fact that what I did caused Tyler to nearly die. and its all my fault.

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//Two hours pass//

A small pat on my shoulder wakes me up from my much needed sleep. Feeling more hungover than I thought humanly possible, I look up into the eyes of the nurse ahead of me. The lights feeling abnormally bright, I shield my eyes from them.

"You're here for Mr. Joseph, correct?"

"u-uh ye-yes I am."

"Come with me,"

I follow the nurse into a room close to where I was sitting, seeing Tyler laying in the bed. He's hooked up to I.V. and who knows what else, seeing him like this is unbearable.

"Okay so he's very tired and should get some rest so please don't keep him up for too long"

"Alright, um th-thanks"

I walk over to Tyler, slowly sitting in the chair next to his bed.

Tyler's eyes slowly flutter open, and he looks straight at me. His eyes close again slightly, then opening wide and looking into my eyes dead on. 

"Tyler I-"

"No. Get out of my room."

A/N Shitty chapter because I have writers block annnndddd I've been procrastinating also thank you all for 250 reads love ya