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I'm in my room listening to music because it always calms me down I'm listening to A thousand years by Christina perri
"Heart beats fast Colors and promises How to be brave How can I love when I'm afraid to fall Watching you stand alone All of my doubt, suddenly goes always some how
One step closer
I have died everyday, waiting for you Darling, don't be afraid, I have loved you for a thousand years I'll love you for a thousand more
Time stands still Beauty in all she is I will be brave I will not let anything, take away What's standing in front of me Every breath, Every hour has come to this
One step closer
I have died everyday, waiting for you Darling, don't be afraid, I have loved you for a thousand year I'll love you for thousand more
And all along I believed, I would find you Time has brought your heart to me, I have loved you for a Thousand years I'll love you for a thousand more
One step closer One step closer
I have died everyday, waiting for you Darling, don't be afraid, I have loved you for a thousand years I'll love you for a thousand more
All along I believed, I would find you Time has brought your heart to me, I have loved you for a Thousand years I'll love you for a thousand more"
By the end of the song a single tear streams down my face. I keep thinking about one person
Peeta.
What if he's the one for me, my one and only, my sole mate, my true love? I would never forgive myself for letting him go.
Even though we can't be lovers, we can be friends. I mean I'm definitely not going to let people tell me who I can and can't talk to, even though I've been allowing that to happen all these years.
And we only need the rest of this school year and next to graduate, then we could date whom ever we want without being judged.
I hate high school!
I decide that I need to do something about Peeta, I can't avoid the situation so I send him a text.
To: Peeta 🍞 Hey Peeta, I really need to talk to you. Can you come over in about 10 minutes, please 😬
I get a response almost immediately.
From: Peeta 🍞 Hey Katniss, and sure I'll be over in 10 🙂
I just realized that Im in my oldest t-shirt that is like 3 sizes too big, a pair of grey sweatpants that have a hole at the knee, a messy bun, and an almost empty tub of ice cream on my bed!
I need to change and clean up a bit in only 10 minutes ugh!
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I look in the mirror and I look so much better! I only have two minutes left so I decide to head down stairs.
The door bell rings and I dart to the door to find a cute Peeta waiting there
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Wow... Peeta looks... wow.
People call him a dork because of his big glasses, I don't know why they make him look so cute. He mouths something but I don't comprehend.
"What" I ask clearly confused
He chuckles slightly and then says, "what did you need to talk about?"
Oh right that... what am I supposed to say? This was a really bad idea.
" oh yeah, that umm, come in sit down." I lead him to the living room couch.
"So..." he breaks the silence.
"Well... I just wanted to talk about... well you know... the... thing... in the place... that we did... pal." I playfully punch his shoulder.
He laughs, "you mean the kiss?" He says it so calmly so gently, how?
"Yeah, the kiss," I respond still a little awkwardly
"What about it?" Huh I did not think this far. What about the kiss? Why did I want to talk about it? Did I just invite him over for nothing?
"I don't know..." I pause, " How do you feel about it"
"Um... good? I don't know? Honestly I've been thinking about it a lot."
Good? That's it? But at least I know he's been thinking about it too, so he may be just as confused as me.
I know I'm going to regret asking this but.
"Did it mean anything to you?" I ask very shyly.
Honestly, it did mean something to me, but what if he doesn't feel the same way? I will be crushed, but if he does there's not a big chance of us being together.
