When I'm with you

Chapter 22

It was a rainy Sunday, and I was supposed to go to Jane's house to apologize, but the weather was so good (yes, rainy days are the best for me) that I just wanted to lay in bed all day. I was still exhausted from the fake date yesterday, but everytime I remembered Chad and Alex getting along again, I couldn't help but envy them. I wanted everything between me and Jane to be back to normal, and to attain that I needed to lower my pride and apologize to her.

I got up from bed and made immediately my way to the kitchen. I could already smell Mom's cooking the minute I reached the stairs. When I got there, Dad was already at the dining table reading the newspaper while Mom was busy preparing for breakfast. I joined Dad at the table and waited for Mom to serve me my favorite breakfast.

As I was filling my tummy with the hot pancakes with nutella, two voices in my head were debating whether to apologize to Jane or not.

Voice 1: You should apologize to her as soon as possible because if you don't do it now you'll lose her.

Voice 2: Oh c'mon! There's still tomorrow. It can wait. Besides it's the perfect weather to stay indoors. Tomorrow will be the start of your exhausting days, you should use this day to relax and pamper yourself.

Voice 1: No, it can't wait! She's your bestfriend and you have to apologize right now.

Voice 2: You'll see each other tomorrow, right? So why do you have to go now?

Voice 1: No, it has to be now!

Voice 2: Tomorrow!

Voice 1: Now!

Voice 2: Tomor--

"Stop!" I yelled.

Mom and Dad quickly turned their gazes to me, their faces were a mixture of concern and curiousity.

"I-I'm sorry. I was just thinking of something and kind of spoke my thoughts out loud. By the way, I'm done. Thanks for the food." I said as I let out a small laugh and retreated to my room.

I threw myself onto my bed and covered my face with the pillow in chagrin. Why did I always speak my thoughts out loud? It was embarrassing. My parents were probably thinking that I was going insane. Well, I couldn't blame them. I had been acting weird for the past few days.

I stared at the ceiling to clear my mind, hoping that it would give me an answer, but I ended up with nothing. I was thinking about what to do when I faced Jane. I wasn't used to this kind of thing. I wasn't a sweet person myself so I never knew what to say; all I knew was that I had to apologize to her. If we continued to be like this, things would be more difficult for the both of us.

In the end I decided to go. I quickly took a shower and dressed up in my normal clothes: shirt, jeans and sneakers. I also put on a hoodie since it was raining outside.

I dashed downstairs and borrowed Dad's car. Dad, without asking why, lent me the key. I didn't know what kind of face I made but he looked convinced that it was something important. I said my goodbyes to them and told Mom that I wouldn't eat lunch with them. Mom blew me a kiss in response, while Dad just looked at me with an encouraging look on his face.

On my way to Jane's house, I let the music blast in the car to cover my nervousness but it seemed useless. My hands were getting cold; they turned white as I tightened my grip on the steering wheel. I didn't even notice that. If I could just drive back, I probably would have already. I didn't know if I was grateful or not that there was a  "No U-turn" sign.

I arrived at Jane's house in 15 minutes. Her house wasn't actually far from us, but the bad weather caused a little traffic so it kinda took a long time. I stayed inside the car for a moment, calming myself down.