lost & hurt

Better this way

"Oh I'll be fine" the girl said to her best friend on a cold day in December. The girls best friend replied, " you shouldn't bottle your feelings up, they'll just kill you inside." The girl said, "you think I don't know that? Do you know how much I loved him before we were even a thing? He crossed my mind so many times but I never wanted to admit it, to anyone because the thought of us being something more than friends haunted me." "I think your making a mistake not telling him how you feel though. You'll regret it", the girls best friend said. "I know I'll regret it, but I'll regret it more if I hurt him again. And loosing him again will hurt more than anything. So yes I'll regret it, but it'll also be good for me and him. I won't get hurt again, and he won't have to deal with my mood swings again." The girl took a deep breath and looked at her shoes,"It'll be better this way, right?" a tear slid down her face and you could see the pain that was kept in her heart. The girl loved the boy, but she made herself forget him and think of every possible thing to make herself no longer love him.