lost & hurt

ending it all

    How do you know when holding on is exactly the worst thing for you? The girl didn't know. The girl has been keeping her feelings because she doesn't want to go let go of something that was once  so special to her. She never wanted to fall in love with the boy in the first place. The girl thought he was weird, and out of her league. But the boys eyes, and gosh the way he would make her feel, it was hard to resist something that made every bone in her body shiver. The girl loved him so much, she couldn't let go of something that at one point was everything she'd ever wanted. Holding on was painful, but letting go was like another death.
        the girl felt hope less though, she felt like she had no one. So one night when her friends and her were in a fight she started she cry and break down. she sat on her floor, her cheeks stained with tears. And she thought to herself, "what happens if right now I just ended it all" she picked up the pill bottle, looked down at her phone and set it down, then emptied the small capsules into her hand and held her hand in front of her mouth, but right before she could put the pills in, she got a call from her best friend. She broke down and tears and curled up on her bed, " are you okay? What's wrong?" the girl replied with, " I can't take this anymore it's too much." that's how she felt, like there was nothing to live for, that no one cared enough to save her from the thing that was killing her the most, herself.