WALLS(Zayn Malik A.U)

Chapter 3-Secret meetings

The beginning of the school day went fairly well thanks to Julia and Morgan the two friends I can count on to not gibe me unwanted sympathy. On our way to lunch I knew it was going to be difficult because Chris wasn't going to be sitting by my side.

Then again everything is difficult.

"Av's if its too much for you, you can sit in a different seat" Anthony one of Chris's closest friends proposed.

"No,no I'm perfectly fine" I said even though we both knew it was a total f*cking lie.

"AVA GRACE DAWSON PLEASE REPORT TO GUIDANCE" A voiced boomed over the speakers.

Suddenly and as expected all eyes were on me as I slowly stood up gathered my stuff and made my way out of the cafeteria doors. What the hell do they want? Honestly if I here one Godamn 'I'm sorry for your loss' I am going to murder somebody.

I walked up yo the guidance door and saved my time with knocking instead I just walked. I regretted that when I saw that boy from this morning sitting in the guidance chair.

Zack?

Z-..

what's his name?

"Zayn, you can go and remember what I said" Mrs. Hemmings the guidance councillor said.

Zayn!

"I hope this school burns the hell down" Zayn admitted as he rushed past me.

"Don't mind him Ava, and I am so sorry for your loss" She said.

There it is there it f*cking is.

"Thanks" I muttered. "Why am I here not to sound rude"

She cleared her throat then begin tapping her pen against her desk lightly.

"I'm not allowed to do this but I figured your one of the people who should be informed, before Christian's untimely death we had special meetings in homeroom and extra periods"

"What do you mean?" I asked.

"He wasn't feeling...like he wanted too he started to come to me in January and never stopped I believed he honestly may have had some form of a depression-"

"Wait what" I yelled

How did I not know this? How have I never noticed 'extra periods' it must have been during my work shifts but I never noticed I never f*cking noticed oh my God, Oh-Oh my God.

*flashback*

"Chris you didn't come get me after work where were you I thought we were getting lunch" I questioned.

"I-I know baby I've been busy you know cramming for exams"

I laughed "Chris hun, you don't need to worry about that now we just came back from Christmas vacation"

"I know I.. I'm stressed Av really stressed" He whined.

"It'll get better just think soon we'll be walking at our graduation!" I exclaimed.

"I hope I'll make it there" He told me. "I honestly hope I make it there"

"Of course you will you are a study bug"

"Goodnight Ava, I love you"

I smiled those simple words warming my heart.

"And I love you Chris, g'night"

*end of flashback*

He told me he basically told me yet I was to blind to see it.

I am pathetic I could have helped..

"WAIT, you mean to tell me that you thought he had depression but you never did anything to help" I cried.

"Our sessions-"

"F*CK your sessions your not even a real therapist you work at a shitty high school you could have helped you really could have helped"

"AVA, please-"

"NO, f*ck you and Zayn's not the only one who wants this God forsaken school to burn to the ground" I yelled.

I grabbed my binder and purse and stormed out of her office but,not before  grabbing the pen she wouldn't stop tapping and threw it against the wall.

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I skipped my last three classes and drove home and cried my eyes out while watching some home videos Chris and I had from our cooking adventurous and holiday visits. My parents came home not even questioning why I'm home early.

"Coming!" I yelled as the doorbell went off repeatedly.

"Veronica" I acknowledged, Christians sister seeing her was like seeing the girl version of Chris talking to her was like talking to him as well.

"Hi, Ava" She smiled though it didn't reach her bloodshot eyes.

"You, you weren't at the funeral" I pointed out.

"I know it was weak of me but, I couldn't do it I couldn't come to terms with it" She explained.

"I understand V"

"One of the reasons I was here is to give you this" She through her arms around me and whispered He really loved you to me.

I smiled as we both wiped away tears.

"The second reason is to give you this" She handed me a letter.

"Its a addressed to you he may have written it right before he- yea"

I opened the white sheet of paper and read the first four words.

I'm sorry my love.

A/N

Damn I need to make the chaps longer haha.

okay so you know how ya feel when your idols don't follow you...that's how I feel when you don't vote :( so if you liked the chap Please vote pretty please.

1) Zayn isn't important YET okay not just YET

2) if your confused about Ava's emotions she's going through the anger part of the grieving process which she'll be stuck in for a while lol

3) please comment your thoughts I love comments

with lots of love

~Lyssie