Mrs. Grey

Chapter 22 Always and Forever

(Lola's POV)

Never in my life had I imagined that this is how my life would end up. Never had I thought that at the end of this long aisle, covered in white fabric surrounded by white flowers, would be the man who would show me that life was more than hospitals, work, and bills. He freed me from a life I hadn't even realized I was a prisoner of and still, as I walked down the aisle, my veil covering my face I couldn't help but wonder if I would miss the life I lead before meeting him. Before I fell in love.

Would I miss mom? Being at appointments with her? Waking up and knowing that she was by my side only a room away? I had woken up in the morning, more excited than nervous, but at this moment I could feel my heart thumping against my chest. I held on tighter to Matt and Jax's arms, feeling my body nearly twice its size.

"What's the matter Lo? Getting cold feet?" Jax asked, leaning down to whisper in my ear as we continued to walk down the aisle. "Just say the word Lo, and we will make a run for it." he smiled, completely serious. The mischievous glint in his eyes made me know he was just joking as usual.

Matt on the other hand, growled.

"Shut it dip shit, before I tell Fred that you are trying to steal his girl." He responded, once again proving that they seemed more like brothers than father and son.

Jax chuckled, but we continued to walk. I tried to stand up taller looking for Frederick's blue eyes through the lace material impairing my vision.

"Just breathe sweetheart. We are almost there." Matt's gentle voice brought peace to my heart that wasn't there before.

The sun above us warmed my skin, but the subtle wind cooled me off enough that I didn't feel suffocated. All eyes were on me. Not that there was a lot of people. Just close friends of the family...more Frederick's than mine. As I looked around, I realized that Sasha was no where to be found.

He made his decision.

To say I wasn't disappointed would be a lie. He was my friend. One of the few I had...more like the only friend I had.

"Almost there." I heard Jax mumble. "You sure you don't want to make a run for it?" he asked, this time no trace of humor lacing his words. As I approached the two steps leading me to Frederick I took a deep breath and sighed.

"I'm sure." I smiled when I saw Frederick standing at the top of alter.

Jax and Matt embraced Frederick, as my mom stood and walked over, hugging us both tightly.

The advice she had shared with me earlier in the day, rung in my ears as she locked eyes with me. Her warm arms squeezing me tightly. She pulled away and quickly whipped away her tears without saying anything. Everything that needed to be said had been. Now all I had to do was live by the words she had graced me with and when the time came, one day, pass them on to my little one.

Frederick took hold of my hands and kissed my knuckles. His eyes met mine as he pulled back my veil. I smiled at him, watching his lips as they turned up at the corners, revealing his perfect white teeth. His hair was perfect as usual and his tux, impeccable.

We turned to the priest in front of us and listened as he welcomed everyone to this beautiful day. He then proceeded to ask for our vows. Frederick went first and although I promised myself that I wouldn't cry, it was inevitable.

"So you see my sweet Lola, you are the most precious person in my life. You taught me that it is okay to not be perfect all the time. You are my friend, my lover, my teacher, my Lola, my everything. You have shown me more love and compassion than anyone else and I hope and pray that never change. In turn, I promise to give you the only thing I will never be without. I promise you me. All of me...always and forever." He said, his voice steady unlike mine. His eyes never left mine.