Bodyguard (completed)

Ch.5

Izaya's pov

I turn on the shower and get some pyjamas to change into after. Just a pair of pyjama bottoms and a baggy long sleeve top. I set them on the unit in the bathroom along with a towel.I get into the shower and I stand there for some time thinking. 

I don't want Shizuo here, I don't want anyone here! I like to be alone, no one forcing me to sleep, no one forcing food on me, I just hate it.

I don't like eating. I hate putting weight on, I hate he feeling I get when I eat.

Shinra told me how much I weighed and I think he was lying to me, I mean look at me! There's no way I weigh under 7 stone, it makes no sense! I hate liars!

And I don't know how long I can keep up this act, I need to act confident and calm to act as if I'm okay, to act as if there's nothing wrong.

I don't even know how I'm supposed to hide my arms from him! And how am I going to avoid eating if Shizuos with me 24/7?!

I hear the door go. " I'm back!" I hear Shizuo say. ugh, I sigh.

" I'll be out in a minute!" I shout back. Was I really in here that long? I get out and dry off. I do my bandages and get changed into my pyjamas.

I step out of the bathroom and walk over to the kitchen, I see Shizuo. He looks over to me, " got us some soup" he says setting some soup in the bowls on the table.

Great. Amazing. Terrific. Fantastic. All the words you could not use to describe how I feel.

" okay," I say nervously. We sit down. Shizuo starts to eat as I play around with my food, I can't bring myself to put it in my mouth.

" you okay?" Shizuo asks. I look up from my food. "Y-you know I'm not feeling too good," I say getting up from thr table and putting my food in the microwave. Shizuo looks at me confused.

" I'll eat it later," I say walking over to the sofa. " you know I've been with you all day flea and you haven't eaten anything," he says walking over to me.

" I-I'm just n-not feeling too good," I say nervously, sitting down on the sofa. I wish I didn't stutter when I get nervous, it's not like me to stutter.

Shizuo stands in front of me. " and what about yesterday?"

" y-yesterday? What about it?" I try to act clueless but I guess I'm not fooling him.

" Izaya Shinra told me to make sure you eat 3 meals a day" I stay silent.
He sighs.

" we'll start tomorrow okay?" He says, I nod and get up walking to my desk.

Shizuo looks at the clock. " it's 11:35 pm already? Let's head to bed" he says walking over to me.

" but I'm not done with my work," I tell him. I just don't want to go to sleep.

" I need you to go to sleep, have you seen the bags under your eyes? You can do the work tomorrow" he says.

" but-"
" no, come on you need to sleep," Shizuo says as he grabs my hand pulling me off the sofa, I can see that there's no way I'm convincing him otherwise.

Shizuo walks to the kitchen and gets some tablets and a cup of water.

"Take these" he demands and hands me the water the tablets. I inspect them for a second.

" what are they?" I ask him.
" sleeping tablets, Shinra wants you to take them," he says.

" I don't really need the-"
" yes you do take them," he says.
" Okay, geez," I say taking the tablets.

We walk over to my bedroom and get under the covers. My bed is very comfortable. It's been ages since I've actually been in a bed.

I feel uncomfortable in bed with Shizuo, 1. He hates me 2. He can kill me in my sleep!