Bodyguard (completed)

Ch.9

A/n an early update again, thank you guys for reading and for votes and comments it means a lot to me! 😊

Shizuo POV

" What happened to your arms?"
Izaya crosses his arms and looks at the floor, his moods totally changed now, he's acting a bit defensive and looks hurt. 

" n-none of your business," he says trying to act confident.

"They're pretty heavily bandaged...are they okay?" I say waiting for his reply.
I'm concerned for him.

" they're fine," he says his voice cracking a bit. "Izaya What's wrong with them?" I ask him, I move a bit closer to him.

" there's nothing wrong with them Shizuo I said they're fine," He says adamantly. He flinches when I move closer, now I'm super worried now.

"Izaya they wouldn't be bandaged if there was nothing wrong.." I say. He looks down at the floor away from me. I touch his right arm, he jumps again and turns to face me shaking a bit.

" and this ones bandaged up to your shoulder," I say. I let go of his left arm and move to his left one.

" so what happened to them?" I ask again. " S-Shizuo  you won't understand so just leave it oka-"

I roll up his left sleeve and look at the bandage lifting his arm up. He flinches again and panics.

" S-Shizuo let!-"  I cut him off.
" I'm worried about you Izaya, the fact that you don't want me to see makes me feel like an outsider, I'm not gonna hurt you okay?" I say.

I carefully undo the bandage and take it off.

I can see all of the cuts on his arm, I feel bad for him. I turn his arm around to look at his whole wrist, which is also covered in cuts.

" what happened?" I ask shocked my voice laced with worry and concern.

" I-I ...got into a fight..." I can tell he's lying. " izaya not even I can land a scratch on you, tell me what really happened," I say in a calm voice

Izaya gets up and walks into the kitchen, I follow him. " Izaya, are you listening to me?" I ask.

" leave me alone Shizuo" I hear him say. " Izaya that looks painful, I can't just leave you alone.." I tell him walking over too him.

" Shizuo you won't understand, so it would be better if you just leave it be," he says. " just try me Izaya," I say. I tap his shoulder. He turns around to face me.

He has tears streaming down his face.
"Izaya, please... tell me how this happened," I ask.

He looks down at the floor. " I....I didn't mean....I-I didn't want too...." he says unable to form a sentence.

"You didn't mean too? Who did this?"
I ask him calmly. He looks at his arm and then back at the floor.

"I....I did... I didn't mean to it was an accident!-I'm sorry Shizuo Im So sorry please don't tell anyone I don't want people to know!-" he starts to hyperventilate.

I rub his back as he try's to control his breathing and the tears that fall unwillingly down his cheeks.

" hey it's okay, okay? Just try to calm down, please" I tell him on a calm voice.

We walk over to the sofa and sit back down.

He looks at me upset and nods his head, I can see tears fall from his eyes.
I hug him, " it's okay, I'm gonna help you, don't worry," I say rubbing his back.

He starts to cry even more and I carry on hugging him. I feel bad for him. What makes him want to do this? Why?

He stops crying and pulls away from me. He wipes his tears away. " I-I'm s-sorry Shizuo," he says, his voice still shaking.

" hey don't apologise... can you maybe tell me why you do it?" I ask him. He looks up at me.

" I don't know... I just do it when I'm stressed or depressed, it just makes me less stressed I guess, I try not to let it show but I guess I didn't do a very god job did I.." he gives a nervous laugh.

"Do you want go go see Shinra I'm the morning?" I ask.

" N-no it's fine, I have work to do anyway.." he says.

" maybe... you should take a break from work, you don't seem to have time for other stuff like eating, sleeping, and social life with the amount of work you do," I tell him.

" but-" I cut him off.

" it'll do you good to take some time off, it must stress you out a lot," I say.

" well.. ( sigh) how long do you want me to take off?" He asks.

" well just until I see some improvement in your uh.... mental state, and physical for that matter," I say gesturing towards his arms.

" well... I guess, but what will I do with all my free time?" He asks.

" you know, normal stuff, like eat and sleep and exercise and maybe even hang out with your friends?" I say.

"Friends? I do not need such things" he says as if I just recommended he stab someone.

I stand up and face him holding out my hand. " I, Shizuo heiwajima, am your new friend," I say.

Izaya chuckles and shakes my hand.
" well this is a silly thing to do isn't it?" He says.

We decide that it's probably time we go to bed since it's almost 11pm now.