Letters to Life: Letters written to a lost life

Unsaid words 1

dear life,
what to feel when everything around you, within you, is changing, like a season, slowly and then all at once? what to feel when everything seems to have slowed down and then you look back to see how fast the time has been running through your fingers, like golden sand? what to feel when all those eyes that glistened with love for you seem to be hidden behind their soft lids forever? what to feel when all those arms that were always wide open for you seem to push you away?

since you left, i feel a knot in my stomach like i feel every time i keep something dear somewhere and forget what and where it is, and have been searching for it ever since. i feel a terrible ache inside me everyday. it is light and dizzy at first. starting from my heart, the pain blasts throughout my body, breaking me from inside and just as much from outside and then it fades away in thin air. was it ever really felt?

there is a war going on among the words that i have dumped inside me for so long, struggling to be out. how can i breathe with all these words stuck inside me? each word fights so strong that none can be uttered. i have got so many complaints but not the slightest notion how to pour them out.

bearing these complaints inside of me for a little longer.