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Thoughts. Thoughts.
They don't seem to stop.
My head is spinning.
I did not sleep well last night,
when I closed my eyes,
the only thing I saw was a figure standing in front of a black car.
It is making me so anxious, looking outside is something that makes me tremble out of fear.
My hands are shaking and nerves are racing through my body.
Sitting at the dining table, staring at the window - which is covered with curtains - I start my day.
I have no school, so I am planning on staying home today. With my curtains closed ofcourse.
My mother has already left for work, so I find myself alone again.My mother works a lot, so she can provide for our little family. I help her too, ofcourse, with my job.
My eyes fall on every object located in our cozy living room and I am thinking of what to do today. Lauren is probably to school and besides Lauren, I do not have many friends.
Socializing is something
I am not very good at and I like to be alone, so it is not really a problem to be honest.
My mother always says I should go out more and make some friends.
She always recieves the same answer though. A nod.
My eyes fall on the bookcase on the other side of where I am seated and I decide to read a book, but I have not even finished a chapter when curiosity gets the best of me and I start walking towards the covered window.
My shake and slender fingers open the curtain slowly. When I have opened them a bit, just so I can see the street, I do not see a black car. Nothing.
I immediately feel my body relaxing and my mind finding some peace.
I take a deep breath and let it out.
Maybe Lauren was right, maybe it was nothing.
But it did not stop me from wondering who that person was. The reason why he was standing there and more important, why he was looking at my window; why he did not look away when I saw him.
My thought were racing and I could not do anything to stop them.
I was dying to know the person his face. The know the eyes that were watching me along with the other features.
My mind tells me to stop thinking about the previous events and all that kept me busy, but the thoughts never escaped me.
Getting a bit frustrated with all that keeps me wondering who the person is, I seek for distraction. One that gives me the peace I want and deserve, so I decide to take a calm walk.
I place the book back in the shelves and make my way outside, already enjoying the fresh air that is given me. And how further I walk away from home, how more my thoughts stop racing.
I walk towards the park and sit down on a bench, looking at the people living their own lives. All these kids running around, carefree.
I wish I was carefree, I am far from it though.
My eyes keep watching the scenes in front of me, until my phone suddenly
starts ringing and makes me gasp out of sudden shock. I sigh and look at my phone. Mother is calling.
I am not really in the mood to answer her phonecall, but do it anyway.
"Hello mom, why are you calling?"
She greets me and says,
"I am heading home now,
will be there in about ten minutes. So I'll start cooking dinner. Where are you?"
