♤
Her.
My angel, my doll,
my lover.
Where nobody goes,
you can follow the tracks,
from her eyes to her chin.
I wanted to soothe her,
cherish her,
give her roses.
I wanted to do everything for her.
But I have come
to realisation that is
no longer realistic.
Our destiny is our destruction.
Tearing us apart and in the
end breaking us.
Apart from eachother we will
think and dream.
Dream about what could have been,
but what is lost in oblivion.
How we wanted our story
to go and how it should have went.
Although no one dreams
that wonderful,
we dream about our fears,
our regrets and I dream about her.
I visualise her in my house,
running barefoot on the cold floor.
In my shirt she dresses herself
and her delicate body
almost full on display.
Falling in our bed,
her hair spread out like the
beautiful angel she is.
I hover over her
and I feel her craving eyes,
full of lust staring up at me.
With no words asking
me to make her mine.
Imagining things
that could have been,
but are in no way what is.
I am going to lose her,
lose the one I love.
My obsession,
walking away from me.
Ever since she was
in my life I found myself
in a world full of magical things.
Lightning my world.
But I do not deserve her,
my beautiful one deserves the world,
not a hypocrite fool like me.
She deserves the best,
the top and I am sure to give her one.
She says she loves me,
maybe she does,
maybe she doesn't.
No one will ever know,
all we can is assume.
All I assume is my love for her is unanswered and that is
all it will ever be.
She does not love me,
no one does.
Oh my darling,
listen to your rational mind
and run away from me as far as your feet can take you.
Explore the world,
all those people breathing the air we breathe.
All those things you will see,
let them in and let me out.
Forget me,
forget all of me.
I am not worthy your love,
darling,
oh my precious one.
Let me go, try and you will win.
Overwin your fears,
defeat your demons
and find your sun.
Let the warmth of others
engulf you and let your body
be cherished by someone
with a mind,
a mind so incredible I could never relate.
I will never hurt myself again,
I promise, I promise.
I try, just like you will.
I am wortless and no one loves me the way you did these past days.
But was it love, no,
it is called compassion.
Je ne peux pas vivre sans toi.
I really can't.
Ever since I saw you for the
first time,
I have not been taking care of myself.
My mind was set on you,
my dream came true.
And after holding in and
keeping my distance,
I eventually found my way to you.
Now, the way to my
lonely life is opening up for
me and it is time to leave.
I have had a small taste of you
and I am completed.
I will always watch you,
from above or from near,
we will see.
I will try to survive,
to go on and continue being
mental and mad.
Hoping my story is ending well,
not perfect.
Perfect would have been with you.
Perfect, perfect.
I feel my demons slowly swallowing me and I can not reach my sanity anymore.
It is gone and it will be forgotten to ever exist,
just as I will.
I was just one person out
of the thousands.
Nothing special,
just Harry.
Mad Harry.
Crazy Harry.
Pained Harry.
I will say my goodbye to
you and you will not see me again.
Our time together is spend
and it was limited,
but it was all worth it.
You are worth it.
Us, together,
we do not stand a chance,
we never have and this is proof.
♤
