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Suffocating in my own demons.
I feel them taking over,
taking over my poisened mind.
For she was the one who kept
me above the water,
she is now gone and everything
pulls me back under.
Starring eyes sparking up my
darkest nights,
as she once did, but not anymore.
Keep me where the light is, June.
Oh yes, lead me to the
place where it is bright. Where
the hole in my heart does fill,
fill with the lovely sight of her.
Fear me, fear everything
around you, but not once can you
find fear when you see her.
Shine, shine and
make everyone as shocked
as you are when you see their
true intentions.
Just as the sun I took a step
back and tried to stay away.
I lulled myself to sleep,
but she always appeared in my dreams.
Wear the moonlight, darling.
Wear it like you wear a smile.
Blind them, blind everyone around you, exactly the same way you blinded me.
Here comes the anger;
the sadness; the lost.
Unnecessary, destructive.
Ruining me.
Thinking of her, speaking
to her in my thoughts, lusting and touching. Hurting. All with her in my mind.
A field with thousand white roses,
I see only one flowering red one.
Obsession is only that red rose,
obsession is only seeing you.
Dying to know how
you are doing, dying to see your angelic, beautiful, mesmerising,
sculptured face again, I think.
Should I go and take my chance,
should I travel, travel to where
my lover is suffering. To save her
and take her back with me.
No. No I can not.
I foolishly took her,
without thinking but brought her
back and did the right thing.
Oh lover,
my angel. Live and celebrate life as if we are still in eachothers arms.
Forgive me, forgive me for who I am not, for what I am and embrace.
For the words that came of her lips,
so enchanting and sweet,
it left me memerized.
When she was in thought,
her eyes staring into the distance.
Instead of magical words,
a pout would take its place upon her angelic face.
This only made me want to
conceal her pure and addictive lips
with endless loving kisses.
Oh June,
my darling, my saint,
amour de ma vie.
It is all too late now.
She is gone, I am lost.
Pained and lost forever,
without her I am nothing.
My beloved, my June.
Living without her is the worst
punishment one can give.
It is only a matter of time
before they find me and
I know it will be sooner than
expected.
My faith is miserable,
but I will do my best to make
hers as perfect as possible.
Oh June, survive.
Survive and live without me
as I can not without you.
I failed, failed in every way.
My mind is restless and it
suffocates me, it does.
Oh how it tortures me.
How long can one man
live without his beloved,
how long can I take this pain.
They are coming for me
and this time I won't hide,
resist or run away.
You held me as if
you were afraid of warmth,
afraid of me, of live, of evil.
I remember your touch,
it is vivid on my skin.
It was what kept me sane.
Now, when I see the
darkness making its way
towards me, I have no
reason to live for.
The kisses we
shared were the one
that burnt me the most,
for they were so passionate
and so full of love,
I love you even more.
If that is even possible.
So darling,
because I will no longer
be one so free,
I tend to see you one more time.
Even if it is our last time.
♤
I want to remind you Harry is unclear, like his thoughts. Also, these are short, simply because they are hard to write.
