Sadness Inside

Chapter 15

CHAPTER FIFTEEN

Jasmin had to continue her workshop but she took my contact number and details as she said she would call me once she finds the time. I was still flabbergasted that John just hook me up with her. Singing could actually be a carreer for me and I couldn't wait to tell Fred the good news!

"So, where now, bro?" I asked, casually as we left the hall. 

"Dinner, of course," he turned to me, "With Fred and Sally," I think he knew I felt more comfortable if Fred was around. There, I could have someone to look to when I was lost, or when I didn't know which direction to turn to in life. He was always there to guide me, indirectly. With his witty and cheerful self, I think he was guiding me to happiness. 

I wasn't that sure, though. But it somehow seemed like it. Although it had been four months now since I had started to be isolated, he has never let it bring his smile to a frown and that inspired me.

We got in the car and it wasn't the awkward silences anymore. John and I were laughing and joking around. In fact, it was even better than the last time I remembered us laughing. He talked about his years with Sally and how he felt loved again. It had been ages since I remembered seeing John this happy. Then again, we don't always remember much when we are three. One of the things he got from Mum;

Her cheerfulness. 

Among my family members, the happiest and always the cheerful one was my mum. And I suppose John got it from her too because he was exactly how I remembered Mum was, especially how their eyes actually sparkle whenever they smile. At times after Mum died, I actually felt envy towards her. How was she so pretty? Sometimes, I might think she was an angel sent from heaven to take care of the family. But when I think back, I was being so stupid and immature. She was dead and I was still alive, a chance to make things right again. A chance to be someone I wanted to be. A chance to be a better one. A chance to change the world into a better place, a better society. 

Why should I envy her just for her looks?

As we reached the restaurant, I saw Fred and Sally already at the a table for four. I waved to them and they greeted me with wide smiles. I told Fred about everything that happened today and all he did was listen as if he already knew that it was going to happen. 

Oh gosh, he crept me out sometimes. 

"So someone is going to be a famous singer, soon!" Fred said enthusiastically. 

I snorted, "Who said I was going to be famous?" 

"I did," he faught back. 

I pulled out my tongue and burst out laughing again. I was probably the only one without a sense of humour and was the only one laughing because I realised everyone was just looking at me. I stared at them for awhile and they too started laughing.

For so long, I had actually a good laugh.

I realised my surroundings. And I felt normal again, like I didn't have to care too much. I felt free. 

Fred wrapped his arms around my waist and his warmth spread to me. I could feel his heart beat beating faster as I get closer to him. Was I making his heart flutter?

Oh the good feeling...

I blushed and placed my hands on his. I had no idea I could ever feel this nice. Fred felt so nice on me, I didn't want to let him go. In fact, I NEVER want to. 

"Hey, flower," Fred whispered. 

"Yeah?"

"I want to bring you somewhere. Sally showed me the place earlier when you weren;t here yet. Let's go," he kissed my cheek.