Shadowhunter Imagines

Dread (Jace X Reader)

Jace X Reader

Word Count 1677

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Y/N POV

My eyes snapped open as an unsettling feeling settled over you. Racing out of bed, I barely made it to the toilet before my dinner was emptied. I held my stomach as I heaved the last of whatever was in my stomach.

After a few minutes, the feeling went away and I felt pretty normal. My first priority this morning was brushing the awful taste of puke out of my mouth.

I quickly took some medicine to help my upset stomach. Breakfast went down pretty well and as the day went on, I didn't feel so bad. In fact, it was a pretty normal day. My stomach wasn't acting up and I waved off the incident with just a little indigestion.

The next morning, I wasn't as lucky. I once again rushed to the bathroom as my stomach emptied itself. "What the hell," I said under my breath.

I didn't have time to think or investigate the situation any further as a knock on the door interrupted my thoughts. Leaving the bathroom, I opened the front door and couldn't help the smile that appeared on my face.

"Jace," I smiled. His blonde hair was wavy and just about everywhere, most likely from the wind outside. "Hey Y/N," he said as I stepped aside for him to come in. He walked over to the living room and plopped down on the couch. I sat beside him, my hand entwining with his.

"I missed you. It's been almost a week since you've visited," I say kissing his cheek. "I'm sorry. I've been busy with missions and council crap. I really wish I could have been here earlier this week," he says, sincerity in his eyes as he kisses my temple. I smile and lean my head on his shoulder. "It's understand. I mean, you live a completely different life than I do and it's understandable that you can't be here all the time."

Jace has been visiting my house for almost two years now. Ever since I figured out I had The Sight one night as I was walking home from a cafe and I witnessed one of Jace's missions. It was horrifying and confusing but Jace was kind enough to explain things to me, even if he had serious attitude issues back then.

"We have to keep this secret. My people, Shadowhunters, don't exactly look fond upon others who aren't... us," he tried explaining.

"Don't worry, Jace. I understand. I don't want to come in between you and the relationship you have with your friends and family. Even if I do wish to meet them someday, that can wait for as long as you wish." Worry still clogged his vision, but that didn't stop the small smile that formed across his lips as he kissed my cheek.

So, we kept it a secret, or more like he kept it a secret. I didn't mind not being a part of that world. Honestly, I knew I was his escape, a way for him to forget the nightmares of his reality, but I've come to except that our worlds are just different. Sometimes I believe that there is real love in his eyes when he looks at me, but I push those feelings away as his eyes are overcome with lust and desire.

It hurts every night he leaves before sunrise, every night he shows up and ends up in my bed one way or another, every moment he holds me close and talks words of love in my ear and disappears he next. Being with Jace has its consequences, but I except them with open arms. Maybe I'm just that desperate for that human touch, not that he's really a human, or maybe its the fact that I've just fallen hopelessly in love with man I have absolutely no future with. Either way, my life pretty much sucks.

"Are you alright? You look a little pale." I'm pulled from my thoughts as Jace looks over at me, a concerned expression visible across his features. "Oh yeah, I'm fine. I've just been having some morning... sickness these past few mornings," I say as a thought forms and a possibility occurs in my mind. "Oh, well are you feeling well now?" I smile widely as I look up at his golden eyes and can't help but wonder if my child would have the same beautiful eyes of its father.

"I'm feeling much better but I actually need to run some errands real quick, if you don't mind?" He shakes his head and I jump up from the couch to get dressed.

Halfway home from the pharmacy, a thought occurs to me and I almost swerve into oncoming traffic.

What if Jace doesn't want this baby? More thoughts follow and by the time I get back to my home, I'm dreading the fact that I actually might be pregnant. What if he leaves me? What if he denies that it's mine and forgets me and the child all together?

I'm shaking as I walk into the house. Jace is in the kitchen cooking when I walk inside. He looks over his shoulder and smiles when he sees me. "Hey, I thought you might be hungry. Want some?" He asks as he holds up a spatula with bacon on top. "Uh, yeah sure. I just, um, need to use the bathroom real quick."

Making my way into the restroom, I take deep breaths and take out the pregnancy test. Peeing on the little stick, I wait, pacing the bathroom as the five minutes tick by. When the time finally comes, I pick up the test and nearly drop it as I stare at the two pink lines. My heart skips a beat and I'm not sure if it's with excitement or dread. Making sure I put the stick at the bottom of the trash can in the bathroom, I walk out and take a seat the kitchen table.

Jace sets a plate of bacon and eggs in front of me and sits in the chair across from me. I eat my food slowly, not really having my appetite as the new discovery bounces in my head like a tether ball in the wind. "Are you alright? The hungriest woman I know has barely even touched her food," Jace comments.

Looking up, I feel my walls break instantly under his concerned gaze. "No, I- I'm not." His eyes fill with worry as he asks me to continue. "I- I'm just so scared and unsure, Jace."

"Unsure of what? Y/N, I have never seen you like this in all the time I've known you. Please, talk to me?" I feel my eyes water as dread and doubt fills me. "I'm afraid you're going to leave me and want nothing to do with me," I say, my voice thick with unshed tears.

"What are you talking about Y/N? Why would I leave you?" Suddenly fear and dread isn't the only thing I feel inside, but anger as well. I'm on my feet and shouting before I even realize what's going on. "Why?! Oh I don't know, maybe because all I am to you is some whore. Some naive and foolish girl to get off with." There's only one expression on his face: Utter shock.

"Where the hell did that come from? Is that really what you think?" Suddenly feeling stupid and unsure, I only shrug. "Y/N, if I all I wanted was a fuck buddy, I wouldn't had been around this long. I would had ditched you years ago and then showed up months later and did the same thing again and again. But no, I'm here every week, some times more and not because I just want sex."

"Then why do you stick around?" The words are out before I even realize it. "What makes you stay? I mean I have no part in your life, Jace. All I am is some girl who waits for you to come over and steal her breath away because she just can't stand to look at another man and feel the same way towards them that she does with you. A girl who is so desperate to be loved that she has thrown away any other chance at a relationship just to be with you once a week. A girl who has fallen so stupidly in love with a man who she has absolutely no future with." The tears were coming down now.

I wiped at the tears on my cheeks as he just stared at me blankly. "Y/N I- I'm so sorry. I've always loved you I just, I didn't want you get caught up in the dangerous and dark world I live in. I wanted you to be safe and every day for the past two years I've been waiting. Waiting for the day you'd tell me to never come back, that you were seeing someone else, that you were going to start your life. And everyday you've yet to tell me and I've fallen deeper in love with you and I'm so sorry, Y/N."

I couldn't help but throw my arms around his neck and pull his lips to mine. "Jace, I love you two. But, I need to tell you something." He didn't let up his grip on me. "I'm pregnant." I felt him tense as he pulled away to look at my face. His eyes moved over my face, trying to see anything that indicated that I was lying. Finally, a grin moved over his face as he lifted me in the air and spun me in his arms.

Setting me down, his hands came up to cup my cheeks. "I love you so much. Tomorrow, I'll go to the council and try and get them to agree to ascend you, if you would like that." My eyes widened as I threw my arms around him again. "I would love to become a shadowhunter. Thank you, Jace, and I love you so much too." I smiled as his lips pressed to my temple.