Shadowhunter Imagines

Forbidden (Raphael X Reader) Pt2

Raphael X Reader
A/N- I'm so sorry it took me so damn long update but it's just been so hectic lately. I'll try to update soon and if I don't, please understand. Thanks for reading and enjoy!

Word Count 765

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Y/N POV

It's been weeks since that night. Clary, the name of the scarlet haired girl who had been with Jace, has been visiting the Institute more and more and has been needing training so I haven't had time to be alone with my thoughts. Today, I wasn't so lucky.

Clary, Jace, Isabelle, and Alec decided to visit some Warlock and I agreed to stay behind. What a mistake. Without the noise of my friends to block out the memory of Raphael, I am left open to take in whatever hurtful memory my mind can come up with.

Today, I have been granted the memory of the night I last saw him. The way he looked with his crooked smirk as he lays me down on the bed. His lips as they lefts soft nips across my collar bone. His fingers as they pressed softly into the flesh of my hips. His voice as he whispered words of praise to my withering body as adrenaline corded through my veins.

Then my mind traveled to the moments after the beautiful and perfect love making. The harshness in his voice. The ice in his eyes. The way all the love vanished so easily, as if he had never spoken those three words to me at all.

Tears pushed up and I pushed them back down, not needing to feel heartbroken today. But I couldn't stop the feeling in my heart, the ache that just never seemed to go away. I had never knew this feeling before but now I do. Heartbreak.

I hadn't even realized I was crying until the world had become a blurry mess and a sob pushed through my lungs and from my throat. My hands came up to cover my mouth, not trying to stop them, only the sound. Nobody knew about my love or acquaintance with Raphael and it needed to stay that way. No matter if it is all over now.

Suddenly, a feeling settled over me and I couldn't breathe. The wall seemed to be moving closer, the air unbreathable as my chest heaved, my lungs gasping for air.

My legs were moving before I could even comprehend it. Before I knew it, the not so fresh of New York filled my lungs. I was breathing hard, my chest rising and falling in short pants as I tried desperately to stop the pounding of my heart and the tears in my eyes.

When I felt the cold hand on my shoulder, my immediate reaction was to lean against it, just needing to comfort of his arms around me. But I knew better than that and quickly turned around, his hand falling from my shoulder. "What are doing here, Raphael?" Venom dropped from my tongue and I could see it bite at his heart as a look of hurt filled his eyes. But they became cold one again and I felt a pain in my heart.

"I came to make sure you were okay."

"I don't need your concern. I am perfectly fine and I don't need you babying me. I'm not a child, I make my own decisions." His eyes bored into mine and I knew he could see right through me, even as I built my walls, he seemed to be able to look through them clearly, as if they were glass.

He sighed, his eyes falling to the grass before moving back up to my face. I knew my cheeks were red and puffy and I knew he could clearly see it too.

"Y/N, I am truly sorry for the way I treated you that night. I was just so worry that I would loose you that I panicked and pushed my anger into you when it should have been pushed towards the buzzing flies that lead the wolves to the hotel in he first place." His eyes showed his sincerity and I felt my heart swell.

I felt a smile tug at the corners of my lips. "Are you calling my friends flies, Raphael?" His lips cracked into a crooked smile as he leaned forward and pressed his lips to mine. "I am so glad you have forgiven me."

"The truth is, I can't live without you. I know time's gonna catch up and things will change in the future, but right now, I just can't help but love you. No matter how much I want to hate you." His lips pull into a smile as our lips meet again. But this time, they hold not only love, but a promise. A promise of forever.