Periwinkle (• k.sj | k.nj •)

Desperate and in Need

Jin wasn't someone who normally denied or refused any cuddling opportunity and he sure as hell wasn't about to when he'd been so desperate to get that connection, even if it was only physical, that was all the man needed in order to feel the slightest bit better.

Namjoon was... Easy to be around for the most part, sure something about the younger guy irked Jin but he was fairly sure that it mostly had to do with the fact that he wasn't actually a bad guy. It had been proved to Jin the moment he felt Namjoon's arm around his waist. He was calm, comfortable and listened well.. And he wasn't all that hard to look at. Hell. He was a definite cutie in Jin's book, but he'd be damned if he said it aloud right now.

Something about the way Namjoon was handling him was beyond comforting. He was surprisingly gentle and that was something Jin missed indefinitely. The softness of someone elses skin against his own. Complete attention for him and only for him.. Namjoon was giving him everything he needed without being fully told what he had wanted and then some.

The ticklish feeling of Namjoon's busy fingers at his waist caused him to shiver after a while, but it was pleasant and calming. A feeling he didn't expect to be feel at all around the younger man.

The situation only continued to go better from there. It was unexpected, as was much of this, when Namjoon began to move his hand up along the length of Jin's arms and even after the other had began tracing his fingers along the exposed skin of his shoulder and neck, he could still feel exactly where Namjoons fingers had trailed up his arm and if it was any more possible to feel so accepted and warm, that was how Jin felt.

He had only wished that he didn't want more. That he didn't imagine actually being with someone who wanted to do what Namjoon was with him every night. He wished that he didn't long for another person's body against his and that because of Namjoon being the one to make him feel this warm and safe that it was him he kept thinking of. It was just what he needed, what he wanted, and he was hoping thag it would have been enough.

And then, as if his mind was being read or somehow the stars had alligned perfectly above the earth, he felt Namjoon's hand find it's way further up his neck and to his jaw and judging by the way it felt, Jin had a feeling he knew what was coming next and if it did happen, who was he to deny it? Seconds later he felt Namjoon's lips press to his and as soon as that happened his right hand went straight to Namjoons stomach and he slowly slid his hand up the mans chest until he found the crook of his neck and let his hand rest there.

Suddenly, all of his thoughts overcame him, just as Namjoon's had and he did whatever felt right and at that moment it was to find a better position to kiss Namjoon. He slid his arm from behind the man and sat up on both of his knees beside namjoon before straddling Namjoon's lap. He then placed both of his hands against Namjoon's chest, confused yet somehow totally prepared for anything that was about to happen. "You know that I'm in a very desperate state so I hope you're willing to prove to me that you didn't just kiss me because you're sorry for me.. but because I'm not the only one thinking about more than just kissing.." he looked Namjoon directly in the eyes, but it was far from a challenging or agressive way, rather a seriously genuine, but soft one. "I don't want to come off as anything I'm not but, I really.. Really hope you weren't just doing that to 'comfort' me, because now I really don't want to be alone.."