Periwinkle (• k.sj | k.nj •)

I Hope I Am

No matter how much Namjoon was enjoying being with Jin like this, he couldn't help but worry that Jin might eventually think he only came over here to get into Jin's pants. Namjoon hadn't even considered this a possibility until Jin responded positively. Everything was going so well and felt so nice that Namjoon couldn't help but crave more and more with each minute that passed. He would love to let his hands wander endlessly and discover ever sensitive patch of skin Jin's body entailed. But for the sake of both of their sanity and comfort levels, Namjoon held off for the most part. The last thing he wanted to do was confirm Jin's initial beliefs and thoughts of him; what he wanted most was to enjoy the contact he and Jin were sharing.

To think that Namjoon was here sharing such an emotional and intimate moment with a man he made out with in a bar bathroom, the same man that seemed to enjoy poking fun at the decisions he made; was incredible. Jin was so much more genuine and real..more human than he seemed that night in the bar or even earlier. He was open about his emotions, he was honest about what he has been through and admitted that his behavior was a reflection of that. Jin was the type of person that Namjoon had been looking for, had been craving for so long, and it was a major bonus that he was extremely attractive. Namjoon was most definitely drawn to Jin.

The fire of excitement that seemed to spark in Jin's eyes at Namjoon's question amazed the younger. Jin was so unfiltered and it was almost unbelievable. "You have my word." Namjoon whispered against Jin's neck in response to him not wanting to be bleeding by the end of this. He would do everything he could to respect Jin's wishes especially since their understand for each other was still at a very fragile and vulnerable stage. "And of course, feel free to do anything you'd like." He said a bit roughly, not letting any more time pass before he let himself finally mark the beautiful skin of Jin's neck.

Namjoon placed a fee more soft kisses on Jin's jaw before his lips made contact with the skin just below. One of Namjoon's hands slid up the expanse of Jin's broad back before letting his hand settle somewhat on the back of his neck, but his numb sat under his jaw. From this angle, tilting Jin's head to one side would be no problem. Once he felt enough of Jin's neck was exposed he went in, trailing wet kisses down, following the natural contours of his neck. Even though he had permission, he still didn't want to rush things too quickly, but he was still eager as ever. After a few more kisses, Namjoon introduced slight nips and scrapes, the skin growing red from the irritation and blood flowing to the surface. He explored for quite awhile, testing the waters all across his neck until he found that sweet spot; right in the crook of his neck. Namjoon made sure to pay special attention to that area, first by teasing around the edges of where it started to become sensitive, and then moving to nip across the surface. He did this for a few seconds, maybe a minute or so before he started on the first hickey. He chose a spot and latched his lips there, sucking softly, occasionally scraping his teeth across the skin. He sucked for a bit longer and finally nibbled the skin harsh enough to leave a beautiful red/purple bruise. Namjoon (almost said papa here instead oml kill me) continued to leave several more hickeys in the same general area as the hand that was on Jin's hip moved up to shift Jin's shirt to the side. He gently tugged on the collar of the shirt, pulling it enough so that it exposed a majority of his collar bone and the very beginning of his shoulder. By the time Namjoon was finished with this side of Jin's neck, his sweet spot was absolutely covered and there was a trail leading to the tip of his shoulder along his gorgeous collar bone. Namjoon just had to sit back a bit and admire his work on the previously unmarked skin. The skin looked red and irritated surrounding the bruises, and along with the pink tinted skin of Jin's cheeks, the man'a cheeks were flushed and the tips were blushed with a pretty raspberry color. Jin looked absolutely stunning and Namjoon's want for him only soared that much higher.

While observing Jin and just basking in how the man before him looked like this, he ended up tracing along the edges of each bruise, scrape and mark he made. He kept his touch gentle and soft as he shifted his hand on Jin's jaw to the nape of Jin's neck so he could aimlessly play with his soft hair. "I want to wreck you so bad.."