The journey from incomplete to complete

Chpy 28

Anjana's pov

It was my dream to visit Lonavala once in a life time. I'm a kind of winter lover girl. I love winter season madly yeah I'm in love with rain also. But I never imagined I'll visit this place in such a broken condition. I know what happened with me and can never forget that also. I can't believe I was about to rape.. Ugh.. The word only hurt so much. I can't believe what would have happened with me if Akhil had not came at right time. I would have freaking raped..., I would have been used.... It's so freaking hell to imagine also. How much I should thank him, because of him I'm alive today otherwise after that incident , don't know what would I have done to me. My chains of thoughts are broken when Dada snapped fingers in front of my eyes. "come back to earth babe " he chuckled. "so here the plan goes guys..." Akhil started blabbering. I'm really not interested ,is not like I didn't like this place but I'm really not in a mood to visit it now. I dream to enjoy this place whenever I visit but my condition are not so to enjoy. Just want to stay alone, far from everyone. "so guys meet you tomorrow morning at 9 be ready and take your necessities along " these are last words I heard before everyone left. "do you want to have something in dinner ?" Akhil asked me. I'm really not hungry "no I'm not hungry... If you want, you can order something for you " I said and tied my hair in a bun. He sat at that couch that I changed, I don't know what made me do that, but I like the view so I insist him to change its position. "Anjana can you just come here " he turned to me said making place beside him. I followed him. "You didn't shared with me " he gazed with a disappointed look. "what? " I snapped "Anjana you shared your past, I know everything about you, your likes, your dislikes in every particular thing. Like you like Chinese in food, you hate meat but chicken is your favourite. As a bengali you definitely love fish but hate sweet as same. You hate gossiping with girls mainly you prefer being silent when you find any one like them. All the time you uttered just Shit with your idiot friends as you don't like serious talks. Your friends are your life but family is your breathing purpose. You help everyone even your enemies but the person who betrays you is always at first in your hate list. Your trust is hard to gain same with your friendship. You love cool season specially prefer hill stations. See I know everything about you " gosh I was feeling as someone tried to express me in words "what ever you felt, you explain to me, what ever you experience you described to me . I even know your worst nightmare but what last accident took place ,you didn't shared a word about it to me " he's disappointed from me. How can I Akhil... I don't want to remember all those things again its very scary. "I know everything is still fresh and you don't want to remind it ever in your life, but if you share it with me, trust me Anjana it will help you only to forget it as soon as possible. You know na how much the happiness is shared it increases and how much the sorrows shared it decreases. " why his words always affect me this much that with him, I feel I'll will never be alone. "What should I say Akhil, how can girl share what she felt when she was about to rape. " I tried to control my tears, it's very bad habit of mine to cry on every single thing you can call me an emotional fool. He motioned to sleep on his lap and for a while I agreed also. I rest my head on his lap. My eyes were fixed on the window cause I'm not that strong to face him. He was caressing my hairs with stroking his fingers through them. Believe me it was really soothing. "You know when you left from there, I don't know why but I felt I miss you. I was continuing my work when he rang the bell. I thought it was you but no I was wrong. He came and blabbered some shits. I tried to handle it softly. He was comparing himself with you. May be he was jealous with you ,but I really don't get what he found new in me. To be honest he's is ravishingly handsome and could get any girl on his fingers but why me ? I'm truly not interested in him. When I refused his proposal then he forced me, I protested his actions and accused him, do you know I even spit on his face really at that time I was feeling disgust on him, then he kicked me and slap me hard. I was hell scared at that time don't know what to do ,he then dragged me pulling through hair. He came over me and then.... " I don't want to go further please he squeezed my hand which I was holding tightly. "please don't stop " he requested "No Akhil I can't go further "till now my eyes were swell due to continuous water fall. " No Anjana... You can, dash out that experience which is hurting you... Trust me you can " I don't know how he is such a motivating person, I'm glad to have him in my life. "then he kissed me all over my neck, I struggle believe me I struggled alot but he was too tough to budge. " he hugged me on that position only but this time I'm not badly crying just feeling secure and protective. As if I'm important to someone. But will he still accept me as his life partner, I'm not fully used but not pure also will he still stay with me "Akhil... " I called ,he's still hugging me while I'm on his lap, he "hmm?" then he lift his face "Shall I ask you one thing? ","Do you need any permission to proceed further?" he snapped "Are you still ready to marry me? I mean I'm not used by someone but not pure also ,will you be able to live forever with me? " I looked in his eyes which are red shots now, what is he angry but why? Many emotions dancing in his eyes but I'm uneducated to read them. "Ask this question once again then believe me Anjana Roy, you will not able to speak forever. You are important to me not your body and your soul is pure who cares about your body,