Forbidden Intimacy

Chapter 10

Lately I've been feeling bleh.

Who know what I mean?

Well it's the kinda bleh that has you feeling worthless ,lazy ,and careless.

I guess reality set in and I realized that as long as I love Travis I will never get out of this abusive relationship ,and that has me feeling ...what's the word? Oh yea bleh.

And with come the feeing bleh has brought my mood down...Sara has noticed this and of course she's questioned me on my total 360 mood swing but I don't know how to tell her how I've been feeling.

I guess just being used over and over again really just sucks the life out of you...kinda like a dementor.

Travis didn't notice a thing... too busy fucking me and another girl on the weekends when I'm gone to notice that I'm not into it and that I'm just down and not as cheerful as I used to be.

Mr.Andrews on the other hand has completely noticed. He's tried getting me to talk about why I'm down but I don't cave in...I won't...I can't.

He's told me I'd need a tutor if I keep this up because my grade in English has dropped dramatically.

Before I'd never let my grade get pass an A-...well now ...my grade is a D all because I've felt Bleh and careless.

And that is why I am in Mr.Andrews classroom sitting in my regular desk not reading the assigned book for class.

I honestly don't give a damn about anything anymore.

And just if your wondering it's been exactly a week after the whole Jace giving me a ride to my house incident.

And ever since then I've gotten up earlier to go home because I can't afford to get caught by Mr.Andrews again.

And after that day the abuse has gotten even more painful. Travis has been extremely rough during our intimate times and when I start to cry or even the slightest whimper escapes from my mouth he slaps me to shut up. And that is when I decided to not care anymore.

Mr.Andrews was over at his desk grading papers while I was over here mock reading.

I turned a page every once in a while to convince him I was truly reading even though I wasn't . Once upon a time reading was my favorite hobby...and then I met Travis and he took up my whole time...slowly forgetting about my love for books.

"You know , you actually have to read the book in order to answer the questions on the sheet." I heard him speak from his desk ,hands folded together.

Before I had been completely staring off onto space ,but now my stare was sadly upon this gorgeous guy whom was my teacher ,that had been constantly on my mind.

Ever since that Monday morning I haven't been able to get his lips ,eyes ,hair ,his whole damn body out of my head.

I kept quiet ,like I had been doing for the past week and I heard him sigh sadly with a scrape of his chair.

Avoiding his gaze I stare off to the side like I was doing before with an emotionless face.

I did however notice him squat down in front of me.

"Hey." He said in such a soft voice I craved to hear it from Travis.

I kept once again silent.