Forbidden Intimacy

Chapter 22

Chapter Dedicated to musicalmaddnes
You know why ;)
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Ali's POV

"Oh my shiz!" I exclaimed as I did a total 180 in the mirror.

It was the next morning and Sara had just gotten done dolling me all up for my first day back.

"But...Sara...is this even me?" I asked touching my face in astonishment.

I had on some foundation to bring some color back onto my face, as I was still a little pale. My eyes were covered in a sparkly grey eyeshadow, mascara on my lashes, and light pink lipstick on my full lips.

The only makeup I have ever really worn was concealer to hide my bruises...all this was new to me.

I looked different.

But a good different.

"Of course it's you silly, you just look different because you have never worn a lot of different makeup." She told me rummaging through my shoe rack.

I looked down my body.

I had on a black skirt that reached above my knees, tucked inside of it was a maroon colored shirt with a breast pocket.

My bestie had styled my hair in a cute cinnamon bun style.

"These should do." Sara said as she dropped my maroon covered converse on the ground with footie socks.

I slipped them on and checked myself in the mirror, while Sara touched up her makeup in the bathroom.

No matter what though I still didn't like my body.

I'm not skinny.

But I'm not huge either. But my stomach still shows...and it's not all the baby's fault.

I'm certainly not pretty enough either. My bruises show the pain I've been through. The scars on my body leave permanent marks that can never be erased.

I can't erase my mistakes...but I wish I could.

I wish I could erase that part of my life. The part when I met Travis and let him swoon me. When we kissed, and fell in love, when we made love and when he started to abuse me. When I had tried to kill myself.

But the one thing I would never erase...is this growing human inside me.

Even though he/she was not planned doesn't make it a mistake. They are now a part of this world. He/she is part of my life now, and I will Love it no matter what life has in store for me because it's still my baby.

"C'mon A we gotta get going." Sara told me as she grabbed her bag of my bed.

I did the same and we walked out of the house and made our way towards school.

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"I feel like everyone's staring." I whispered as I walked through the halls with Sara.

"That's because they are. But don't let them bother you. You're not tied under Travis's leash anymore. You are your own person. Don't be afraid. They know nothing. You've just been gone, and now you've returned. They are just surprised to see you back." Sara told me as we stopped at her locker. She grabbed her books and faced me.

"Okay?" She asked.

"Okay." I said nodding.

She's right.