Random thoughts and quotes

The fall

A little episode, almost insignificant.
And I'm down.
I didn't know a bunch of mosquitoes was all I needed to give up.
A lot of stings on my skin, the pain spreading in my legs, the thought of me never tanned. It's impossible here, nuh? There's not a single spot in this whole place assigned to relaxing. No one here knows a break from work.

I'm sitting in the kitchen, dining. Between me and my father there's a thin layer, something that makes it difficult to talk. He only sees work, he doesn't even ask how am I feeling. He stays silent most of the meal, if he speaks it's about work. You can't say what crosses mom's mind, she tries to keep everything under her control.
But him, he's unbearable. He gets mad easily, he's able to hurt with words and I hate it.
I hate when he forgets we're his family and he only thinks about his damn job. I hate summer 'cause he always has plenty of job, and I'm the only ghost who has nothing to do.
Haha, the only ghost. I should be, but I'm not alone. This life is fucking complicated sometimes. But the one I struggle the most with is still myself.
I want to cuddle someone so bad, just forgetting everything and getting lost in someone else's thoughts.
I don't wanna face my flaws. And I was about having a serious talk about this with my friend, but he disappeared. The other big friend of mine disappeared yesterday afternoon, my dad is staring at me with everything but friendly eyes and well, there's was still a friend but I don't want to talk to him, not after what he said to me.

At least I have a dog, this little joy of mine probably got that something was wrong with me and went sleeping next to me. Thanks Lilli, love you girl.
I probably have someone else too, but I don't want to bother him. It's just so fun talking to him because he's the new arrived in town, a whole soul to discover.
We're both keen on science, both left-handed, both so different there's probably an ocean between us, the one he's able to swim into and the same one in which I would sink. But that's okay. We chat about everything and it's amazing how one of us always knows something new to amaze the other. True scientists blood.
He's at home now, he lives near the beach, while I'm next to the mountains. Be's going to be back in one month, meaning that I have one month to get a little better. I deserve it, for myself, not for him, but still he may be the reason why.