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It's hard to love

I fucking miss blue boy.
Shame on me.

Today it feels like it would be nice to go back in time, like one year later or so, or maybe sleep in all day, letting my mind sort out her crazy dreams.

I can't come up with something. Tonight I dreamt of a boy who was insecure and I tried to help him, but I can hardly remember his features... and it pisses me a lot. By the way I know perfectly what I did to cheer him up and let me say that it's not something I can tell here. There's just a friend who can hear all of this and, believe me, she will probably ask me why the hell am I dreaming things like this.

The answer? I don't fucking know! I only thought that lpve was different. That it would be all sparks and fireworks and everything, but I feel calm and okay and honestly I don't know if it's normal. Sometimes I ask myself if I'm doing right or wrong... maybe I'm not used to this and that's why it feels weird. And obviously people around me can't understand. Thanks a lot, that's really what I need.

Better for me to go. I'm starting to doubt what's wrong with me and now it feels like everything makes sense. But the thing is, I can't take steps back only for this reason