living

What a fucking day

I was sooooo pissed this afternoon wanted to slice someone's throat actually i didn't know how i felt it was a combination of sadness anger and disappointment i was just pissed sooo pissed to the point i had to talk to someone about what the fuck do i do he lowkey helped but not really because he isn't that sensitive when i start crying but now i'm Actually happy, today went soooo well i feel wayyy better than i did. Me and my friend walked all around downtown i love her so much to be honest i can always rely on her. I'm great friends with her mom lmao yes i'm that person but her mom is so fun to be with. I can go to her house anytime i want her mom actually loves me that much she even told my mom lmaoooo my mom was actually proud lmaoo.
i had fun even tho before i just felt like slicing someone's throat i was sooooo pissed off i can't even tell you my dad made it worse i was already pissed and i tried to be calm like "okay it's okay you will make it through the door then go to her house and have a bombass time and forget about the bullshit just breath" fucking my dad just ends up yelling at me because i fucking forgot to tell him i'm going to a damn mall i was sooo pissed i was supposed to be at her house at 3:45 i got there at 4:23 MY DAD KNEW AND MADE ME FUCKING LATE DID THAT BITCH KNOW WE ARE TAKING THE CITY BUS???? Fucking that bitch was lucky we got to her house and ran to the bus right when it was about to leave i was soo pissed i wanted to slice literally everyone's throat i couldn't but then i had a bombass time and every little bullshit just went away i was at peace.
Has anyone ever experienced this before that you escape something and once you go back it hits you that you're back and you want to stay in that other place forever and forget about everything ,yeah cause me too right now.