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XXVI

"Did you finally realize that you meant nothing to that foolish boy?" my dad glared at me. "You know the gang and I put him up to it, right? I mean it's not like he would ever actually fall in love with you, would he? Because that's just who you are. You're unlovable. I didn't love you, your mom didn't love you, and all of a sudden you think that a random boy could love you because you're just so desperate for validation and love. You need a reality check, and that's what I'm here to deliver. We threatened to kill him if he didn't find you and bring you to us. It was the only way we would grant him freedom from the gang. So, he obviously agreed, and here we are. He gave us your exact location, down to the postal code. It took him longer than we wanted though, so we're going to have to give you a few injuries to make him feel some pain for disobeying us, and then we will do something that I wanted to for a long time."

I wanted to slap him more and more after each word he said. Not because he's lying and hurting my feelings; because it's the truth. The truth is what was hurting my feelings, not the lies. Because I am unlovable.

What did John want to do for a long time?

"I want you to be apart of our gang, Melia."

Is he insane? I kept a blank expression on my face but my heart and thoughts were racing. I couldn't be in a gang, I don't want to hurt anyone. I won't become a monster like my dad, or Ashton.

"No." I stood up to him, not even flinching.

"Excuse me? Melia, this is why we want you. You're brave. You stand up for what you believe in and you fight no matter what. That's what we need."

"Yeah?" I said, "well I wanted a supportive mother and a father who didn't hit me when I was late from school because of homework. But I didn't get that, now did I? Instead I got you. A disrespectful, rotten pig. And I'm done playing your games, John. I'm in charge now."

And with that I slapped him straight across the face, kicking him in between his legs and watched as he collapsed, screaming. I flipped my hair over my shoulder and ran. I ran to the door, fiddled with the lock, and continued running outside.

The light burned my eyes as I hadn't been exposed to daylight for days. I squinted them and continued on.

Even if Ashton never loved me a part of me prayed he was okay. Not only did I miss his love, or fake love, I missed seeing the world in colour. My blonde hair and my blue eyes is all I wanted to see again, instead of grey and black. And without him, that wasn't possible. He used me, so why should I feel guilty for wanting him back just to see colours again?

I was going to find him. He could be hurt and as much as he deserves it I have to help. I owe him for the happiness he gave me.

But I wasn't sure if I ever would see him again. With my dad chasing me to be apart of his gang and Ashton fighting cancer, fate is going to continue to push us apart.

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a/n: I loved writing this because I could finally turn Melia into a strong female character and it made me so happy ah :) the end is coming quite soon for this by the way, probably 3/4 more chapters.