D's pov;
Im about to drive to work. The sky is starting to get dark. It smells like rain. It doesn't usually rain in California. I turn out of the parking garage and see jul's car on the street. I think about last night. Jul is great, but i've never really thought of him that way. I feel terrible. It took me a minute to even realize what he said, and thing all i could say was,"No, sorry." And ran back to my apartment. I try to get it out of my head. Everything will work out, Right? Jul will come over to work on the game and it will be the same as always.
I unlock the door. I work at this little video game shop call "LA Games". Im opening today which means ill be alone for about 30 minutes. Yay, more time to spend thinking, my favorite thing to do. I sigh. I hate my co-workers though, so i dont know if im mad or happy i get 30 minutes alone. I turn on all the lights and sit behind the counter trying to find a key to the back room. I spin my chair to face the window. Its Still kinda dark. I grab this little note book out of my bag, I doodle in it when there are no customers.I start to draw a person. I takes me a minute to realize its jul. Everything rushes back into mind mind again. I wonder what he is up to. Hopefully he isnt too upset. That was never my intention. I honestly never thought of him that way. I've never thought about anyone like that. I have no idea what its like to have a crush or to fall in love. Im weird. Thats just how i am. I probably should have elaborated on my no more, instead of just running out. DING. A customer walks in. I guess i would have to start working at some point today.
Jul's pov;
I knock on chris's door. There are still tears in my eyes. I didn't get much sleep last night. He just ran off. I don't know if things will be the same. He doesn't like me, meanwhile, i love him. He loves me as a friend, i know. But i love him so much more than that. Chris opened the door still in his pajamas.
"Hey, why are you here so early? You okay?" He said in a tired voice.
"No." A tear started to roll down my eye. I tried to control my crying, but could only hold it back for the car ride over here. He stepped aside and let me in. The apartment was dark because of the clouds outside. He went over to the kitchen to make some coffee. I went to go sit on his balcony. After sitting out there for a couple minutes crying, chris comes out with two cups of coffee. He hands one to me and sits down.
"So whats up?" Chris asks taking a sip of his coffee. I explain everything that happened last night. He knows i've had a crush on D every since i gained it. "Julian, I honestly think you need to talk to him about it. Ding isn't good with feelings. He never has been, at least while i've known him. Maybe he is confused or doesn't know how to handle them." I sigh. I remember last night when D was talking about times where he never feels anything. "Uhh, OOOHHHH. Lets watch a movie! You up of lord of the rings?"
"sure." I wipe the tears off my cheeks and smile. I've stopped crying by now, i feel a tiny bit better but im still sad. Chris runs inside and I follow. I try to get my mind of D and watch the movie, but its hard.
D's pov;
I get off work and drive back to my apartment, the clouds still rolling in. It's about 6pm. Jul will probably be at my apartment when i get inside. We were supposed to work on the game. As i walk up to my door I open it with excitement. Jul isn't there. He didn't text me saying he wasn't coming either. Maybe he forgot..... Oh who am i kidding, he wasn't coming. I hurt him. I go into my kitchen drawer and pull out a small box, then grab my notebook from my bag. I lock my apartment door and head up to the roof.
I sit down right where we were last night and take out my notebook. Pictures and doodles of jul on every page. Could i have a crush on him....? did i hurt him for no reason? I dont even know what a crush feels like. I dont understand feelings, at all, But for some reason in this moment, i was sad. This is the first genuine emotion i've felt in a long time. I set my notebook inside and grab the tiny little box. I open it up and pull out a cigarette. We keep a lighter hidden on the roof in our little area. I take it and light the cigarette. I haven't smoked for a while. I started to stop once i met Chris and jul. But right now, I needed it. I dont know how to handle my emotions. Before last night i wasn't even sure i had them. What do I do?
(Little note: These chapters are meant to be short, but ill post these more often, yesterday i was just really busy)
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A L O N E - DingDulian
FanfictionA rejection, a day out, an old friend, and a sad man. - - - Slight triggers; Note: Chapters won't be as long as my usual stories, and I will keep writing the other ones, I just want to make a sad one. ❥
