undeniable feelings | a stephchelle story

Chapter 4 - back with you

- STEPHANIES POV - 

I watch as Toby and his friends joke around, I give fake laughs at them but my fake laughs sound way too fake. My eyes widen as Toby gives me snarls.

"Why did you want to work with her anyway." He laughs, pointing over at Michelle, who's sat by herself again on a small bench. She's looking off into the distance as the wind blows her gorgeous blonde hair behind her, I can't help but smile.

"WELL.." Toby insists, I snap out of my daze.

"e-erm I j-just felt bad because s-she had nobody." I quickly blurt out in fear. I read his expression and it's not a good one. He scowls at me, rolling his eyes. He glares at her in anger.

"Babe, she's not your problem, it's not your fault she's a a sad loner, it's hers." He snaps. Well it is my problem if I have a crush on her. "I'm going to play football with the boys, feel free to go cosy up to her if you think she's more important than me." He shouts. His friends stare at me in anger, closely following behind him as he storms off towards the football pitch.

I glance over at Michelle who's now looking up at me in concern, I smile back and run over to her to try and warm myself up slightly.

"Mind if I sit here?" I ask amongst shivers. I beam as she agrees. I sit next to her, in close range, feeling almost instantly at home. I shiver uncontrollably. As I begin to place my arms completely in my sleeves, I feel a warm arm wrap around me, I turn to my side to see Michelle placing her arm out with her big woolly jumper to warm me up. I free my arms from inside my jumper and cuddle up to her. I get a feeling of happiness rush inside of me, almost like fireworks setting off all throughout my body.

I wrap my arms around her shoulders, leaning my head against her shoulder. This feels almost like a dream, until I realise how much I must've just freaked her out by getting so cosy. I quickly sit up and re position myself so that I'm upright and out of contact with her.

"Oh my god I'm so sorry." I giggle. 

"For what?" Michelle questions in confusion.

"Well, for cuddling up to you like that, you must be so creeped out I'm so sorry." I laugh apologetically.

"It's completely fine Steph, carry on, I just want you to be warm." She smiles in concern. I go back to the position I was happy in, snuggled up to Michelle as she wraps her arms around me, squeezing me tight. 

I just wish this meant something to her, I wish she could be gay or bi so that we could secretly be together, out own little secret. I blush at the thought and close my eyes as I lean on Michelle's shoulders, feeling overwhelmed with emotion. Even if we could never be, I will always love her.