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23. Filming all the live long day

A.N.
Im so sorry there haven't been updates in sooo long! life started happening. Darned life. but here you go. I feel really guilty so im goin got try to write some more. I know where I want the story to go, just not completely sure how to get it there.

thanks to @dont_eat_soap @dont_eat_soap. for the motivation

Things have been going well for too long. time too shake it up. *evil laugh*

Nats p.o.v.

I wake up next to Johnnie, unable to sleep anymore. Its 5 in the morning. ugh. Its been four weeks of good things since his first counseling appointment. I have been having trouble sleeping lately, but he's been sleeping good and normally so thats good. 

I gt up and try to think of something to do. I end up sitting on the couch and putting in some headphones. I guess I fall asleep again, because next thing I know I wake up again to Johnnie on the couch with me. I think he Rolle over or something and it woke me up. he's asleap laying in my lap. I look around for my phone, noticing me headphones fell out some time in while sleeping. I find It on the floor about a foot away. I want to reach for it to see what time it is, but Johnnie is sleeping and I don't want to wake him up. instead I play with his hair and close my eyes.

I've been so tiered lately. Johnnie has been doing so well, and having him be happy makes me happy, but I kind feel like im losing myself, and I don't know why or how. I eventually fall asleep for the third time.

Johnnie sP.O.V.

I wake up early, and see that Nat isn't there. I almost start to worry, but see him out in the living room on my way to the bathroom.  The cutie fell asleep on the couch with headphones in. I stop for a second to look at him. His head is tilted back, and he's leaned a little towards the side. His wrinkled pajama pants are a bit askew, and his dark hai is all kinds of messed up. But despite ll of this, I feel a tang of worry for him. He's been quiet lately. unusually quiet. 

After I use the bathroom, I lay down next to Nat with my head in his lap. Before I know it, im asleep again. 

I almost wake up, but am caught in that weird in-between play of sleep and awake. I know Nat is playing with my hair, but I can't seem to wake up fully. He wraps an arm around me. 

I dream that im on a boat in the ocean. The sky I clear, its beautiful. Dolphin or some shit jump in the water, making a splash. I laugh ad look over at Nat, ho should be beside me. But instead theres nobody there. I spend the rest of the dream searching the ship for him. I dont find him. 

I wake up AGAIN, this time determined to stay awake through the day. Nat is playing on his phone or something. I roll over and smile at him, sitting up partially. 

"hey babe. good morning to you."he laughs and says good morning back. 

"want to go out for lunch?" he asks me 

"sure." I wonder why he wants to go out. oh well. maybe its just for the food. 

Nats p.o.v.

Johnnie gets up from my lap to get dressed, and I get up and stretch. It almost 11, so we will probably be just on time for lunch hour foods. I need to tell Johnnie about my upcoming trip. Im worried about leaving him fro 9 days. He seems to be doing ok but im always worried. 

We leave for food around 11:30. He puts on music as soon as we get int he car, so I dont have to worry about trying to think of something to say. I haven't been able to come up with words lately. Im just consumed in my thoughts. 

I think a lot lately about the past. Also the future. Like, I dont know where im really going. My acting is my career and passion of course, ive just been feeling lately like im out of steam. Like, a light went out in my head, and now my thoughts are half in the dark. Its strange, because I feel like I should be super happy right now. I have my dream job, Johnnie, and everything is going well. But still its just there in the back of my mind. I dont realize that Johnnie is talking to me until he pokes me. 

"hey, wheres you head at?" he's laughing while he says it, but it makes me sad. 

"sorry, what?" I manage weak smile.

"where do you want to eat?"

we decide on carls jr. because neither of us has been there before and were cheap.

we get inside, order, and sit across from each other at the table, before Johnnie starts laughing and moves over next to me. I put my arm around him while we wait for food. Were both playing on our phones for a minuet. 

"so... Johnnie." I say, setting my phone down. he turns his phone ver on the table. 

"yeah?"

"The show is doing some filming in Seattle soon." I start, but then the lady walks up with our food. damnit. 

we star eating after the lady leaves.

" what ere you saying?" he says, looking up at me. god, I hate it when he looks up at me. He's too hot. 

"uh... I have to go with them to settle. For the show." he looks a little bit sad for half a second. 

"for how long?"

" less than 10 days."

"ok."

and thats that.

A/N

sorry for the short chapter, just trying to was back into it. thanks again cecelia, and I hope you like the paragraph breaks lol.