Mortal | ✔

down the road

I saw you down the road with a cheque shirt and ripped jeans - the one I bought you on your birthday. I guess you still love it like how you used to adore it before. You had a flower bouquet in your hand. For whom? I thought . But didn't get a reply. Guess that was what our relationship was like- one sided love. There were roses in the bouquet; red ones, my favorite indeed. I wish you would turn back and just hand it over to me, even as a stranger. But the universe had planned the worst things for me on that day. You walked past the fifth lane; where we had our first kiss - ugh I miss that day. You brought me red roses, like the ones you had in the bouquet. They smelled like heaven. And yoi fed me my favorite chocolates. I had them all over my mouth. Fun memories..
I crossed the road so that I could be on the same path as you. I was right behind you and I saw a ring on your ring finger. Did you get engaged? Who is this lucky girl? The questions were just waste of my breathe as no answer came to me. But well I guess I should be happy for you after all what you had done for me. After all, the best moments in my life were with you. If I had a smile on my face, you were always next to me. So no worries yea? I should just have the same happy face even though I know that I don't have you now? If that's what you want then yea I could wear the mask I've been wearing since you left me. Since three years ago. Since my accident . since my flawless face got ruined and it became 'ugly' again. After all those, I figured out that you wanted just one thing from me. And who knows? From all the othr girls too maybe- beauty . if its not there you just dumb that person like the smelliest garbage you find in your room. That's who you always were. But I was so into you that the only thing I saw were your perfections and flawless self.
Maybe if I wasn't with you, I wouldn't have known what dickheads were like. I would've just imagined a dick on a head. Stupid thoughts as always. If it wasn't for you, I wouldn't have learnt all the important lessons in life.
That beauty isn't everything
Not all come with good intentions
And most of all, you can't make a person love you if they don't want to.

-f.f.f