BOYFRIEND BY CONTRACT #1 (RE-EDITING!)

E I G H T E E N

It's been two days already since I left the house and Yoongi never went to look out for me. Not even a message.

The thought bothered me but I forced myself to get out of the bed with a smile on my face anyways. I went downstairs and my mother immediately smiled as I entered.

"Good morning, dear." She beamed happily and laid a plate full of pancakes on the table. I sat down and stared at her while she made her way to me.

"Are you seeing Jae today?" Her eyes lit up as she spoke of him and a sigh escaped my lips. "Eomma, please stop trying to put us up together." My voice sounding in a pleading tone.

She looks at me and shakes her head disapprovingly. "You two would make a great couple, dear. Why do you even date that other guy?" Her question caught me off guard as I looked away.

Why was I even dating Yoongi? I don't even know. Maybe because he had a bad reputation and I was his solution. The only solution to his problem.

I wondered why couldn't it be another girl by his side instead of me. I'm nothing but a simple woman with a low class job. I wouldn't even dream of dating a famous guy.

But then destiny decided to play a trick on me and here I am. Feeling things I've never felt before for someone who likes to play with other people's emotions.

My life is messed up. But even so I would not change anything. As strange as it sounds, I feel happy.

Not everything is made of bad moments after all. Yoongi showed me a side of him I've never seen before. That one side that is caring although he's not one to show concern.

I actually think that I have the answer I was looking for a long time ago.

"He makes me happy." I finally replied after moments of silence and my mother grabbed both of my hands.

"It seems to me that he doesn't make you happy." I guess part of it is right. Or else I wouldn't be here completely broken hearted.

There are moments where I'm happy by his side and I don't want to leave him for a second. And even if they are few I still treasure them.

But there are moments where he simply ignores my feelings and acts like I'm just a person to play with.

He confuses me but makes me feel alive at the same time. I wonder if I'm one of the reasons of his happiness.

"He's not easy to deal with. His stubbornness speaks louder and he just doesn't hear any of my explanations. But not everything is made to be perfect." I got up from the chair and my mother looked at me in disbelief.

"You really like him right?" Her voice soft as she pulls me into her comforting embrace. I let myself be quiet and just shake my head.

"It's complicated." I laugh at my own words and realize how far this all went. We ended up feeling things for each other and now neither of us know how to deal with it.

Hurting each other is the only way we find.

"Things aren't complicated unless you make them that way." Her soothing voice filling my ears as she caresses my hair. I finally feel like she's supporting me.

"As much as I try to make everything easier It doesn't work." I raised my head up and my eyes catched a glimpse of a smile on my mother's face.

"It takes time. And even while being patient things don't go well then maybe it wasn't made to be." Her eyes filled with sincerity.

To even think about it being right made me want to cry without no apparent reason.

But it doesn't mean it's like that right? I need to see him. I need to say everything I kept inside of me out of fear.

I need to tell him how I feel. Our contract had one rule only and I'm slowly starting to break it. Who would say?

Please wait for me, Yoongi. 

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omg i wrote this so fast lol sorry for any grammar mistakes!