It was you ( On-Going )

[15] New found friends.

Chapter Fifteen.

Frenceska.

" Friends? "

Nagising ako sa paulit ulit na pagtunog ng phone ko. I lazily took my phone from my bedside and read the texts I recieved. All from my friends. Sunday ngayon, at wala akong planong umalis ng bahay. Wala 'din sa isip ko ang umalis sa kama ko, I am too tired to move.

Kahapon, andito lang ako sa kama ko.
Even my family can't get me out of my bed. Napansin nilang may problema ako kaya pinabayaan muna nila ako.

Niyayaya ako ng mga kaibigan ko na pumunta sa bahay ni Ann, mayaman sila at kilala na kami as friends ni Ann kaya kapag andon kami feel at home talaga kami literal.

But today, ayoko talagang sumama sa kanila. I replied to them na masama ang pakiramdam ko at magpapahinga nalang siyaka pinatay ang cellphone ko without waiting for their replies.

Umayos ulit ako ng higa, at niyakap ang unan ko.

I thought I'd be fine.

The time Vance took me out, made me forget my problem. I started smiling, laughing and stopped thinking about it for the meantime.

Pero when I got home that day, I started crying na para bang ayoko mawala saakin si third kasi mahal na mahal ko siya at ayoko siyang i-give up.

But everything's too late.

Tapos na. He had no plans of coming back to me but if he asked me to come back to him, I would. That's how idiotic of me to love someone who can't see my worth.

Umiyak ako ng walang nakakapansin.
Sa banyo ako pumupunta kung sakaling tumulo nanaman ang mga luha ko, dahil ayokong malaman o marinig ng mga kuya ko ang iyak ko.

They treated me like a princess— but one guy treated me like I'm nothing.

Why is it like that?

Nagbabadya nanaman ang luha ko na tumulo kaya wala akong ibang nagawa kundi umayos ng upo sa kama at tumingala. Hoping na bumalik ang mga luhang gustong kumawala sa mga mata ko.

Third.. How can I forget you?

Pinunasan ko ang mata ko at tuluyan ng humikbi. Tangina, ansakit pala.
Oo nasasaktan na ako noon kay third, pero may mas sasakit pa pala.

Bakit ganon?

Minahal ko naman siya? Pero bakit hindi parin sapat? Pinagmukha na niya akong tanga sa harapan ng iba, pero I still stick of him but why can't he just stick with me?

I should start forget you, Third.

Sabi ng mom ko, I am too young to feel this heartache. Marami pa akong makikilala, kaya I shouldn't let anybody break me that much. I wanna let go of this heartache at sundin ang mga sinasabi ng mga nasa paligid ko, because that's for the best.

I haven't come out yesterday, maybe I could now.

Bago bago palang, pero I have to forget you third. I woke up in a hospital, learning to love you but now I have to woke up in my bed and enjoy my youth.