The Broken Condoms

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Kellin point of veiw

I sat next to Vic at lunch as everyone around us was talking, including him. I was being rather quiet today, simply glancing over at Vic occasionally and soaking in every word that slipped from his mouth. The problem I was facing today was wondering what him and I were doing. I mean, a third person in on this would definitely assume we both like each other in that kind of way but actually, I don't know.

Last night I was so sure I was falling in love with him but.... I don't know. I mean yeah, he's incredibly attractive, he's funny, he's compassionate, and he makes this really cute face when he's concentrated, and when he licks his lips oh man- see this is why Im confused. I'm having these thoughts but I still just feel like maybe I don't like him. I don't know.

What am I saying? I mean, Kellin, do you hear yourself? You obviously have a huge bone for this dude. It's true, i do. He's cute, kisses well, and is funny. What more is there to need? But what about him, why would we have any interest in me? I mean, Im attractive I guess, I'm not ugly , but what about my personality? Is he attracted to that? What if I'm not a good kisser? I mean, when it gets down to it, do me and Vic really know enough about eachother to like each other like that?

Things I know about Vic go as follows: he's charming, he wants to help people, he's very serious about music, he plays guitar and sings, he loves his parents, he has no friends, works a lot, is pretty book smart, and lives In San Diego. That's the extent of it really, so maybe I don't really like him.

But I feel like I do. I'm probably overthinking it. I need to just let it go and stop thinking so much.

I was snapped from my thoughts when Vic nudged my side with his elbow. I looked over at him noticing how everyone else was getting up to leave. "You okay?' He asked, furrowing his eyebrows as the group left us and the room emptied.

I nodded, smiling a little at his concern. "I'm just fine,just thinking." I said. He smiled and looked around before pressing his lips to mine in a quick kiss, pulling away before I could register what happened.  I smiled afterwords, mindlessly reaching up to touch my lips.  He gave me a smirk before getting up as I simply followed.

Yep, I was wrong, I totally like him.

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Vic and I sat on the edge of the cliff, our feet dangling off the edge. We could see everything from here, atop all the trees. There wasn't much blocking out view. We could look out upon the water and past the forrest. We had decided to chill out today and just talk. So we did.

"I miss home, man. I'm homesick i guess. I even miss my jobs." Vic said as we sat there

I shrugged. "Can't relate honestly. I hate my home for the most part. Schools the only real exciting part of my life. "

"Why?" Vic said, looking over at me with a concerned look.

"I don't know. I mean, aside from not agreeing with my career choice, my parents are alright I guess. But the problem is, since I'm in choir basically every day I have something choir related to do, I'm the president so. But anyways, since choir is a part of my daily life, they talk about how they hate it daily. When I'm practicing my songs they make a point to stop by my room and remind me that they think it's stupid. So being at home sucks. My parents are just overall really cold and...boring. They feed me and buy me everything I need, and if I came to them with a problem they'd help me, if they see me crying they're concerned, but it's nothing like.. I don't know like your parents. They don't put out for me,sacrifice for me, support my dreams. They're kinda just like distant roommates." I said, staring out over the water.