The Broken Condoms

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Please read the note before this chapter
Vic point of veiw

I woke up the next day with a plan, a solid one. I was gunna ask Kellin to be my boyfriend today. Tonight, in fact. When we go to swim tonight as the sun paints itself onto his skin, I'll kiss him and ask him. Honestly I'm not too worried about it, I can infer from our make out session last night that he definitely likes me. We didn't really talk after I said what I said, he just kissed me and next thing I knew he was on top of me and we were both sweaty, trying to catch our breath. After that we headed back and held hands because one, it was dark. Two, he's cute.

We kissed once more before we went in and then departed to our separate beds. I had laid in that bunk restless for hours before sleep caught me. The reason for my restlessness would be the boy just below me, which led to a very tired Vic the next morning. But it didn't matter because today that boy would be my reason for restlessness for hopefully forever.

I woke up that morning and showered with spunk, singing the whole time. Me and Kellin didn't hang out in the mornings any more in order to avoid suspicion from our group, and because we needed to spend more time with them. So while we walked to breakfast and every one talked about how they slept and their dreams that night, I carried a smile on my face and a hop in my step

"What's got you so happy?" Lynn says, breaking me from my happy thoughts. I look at her and smile.

"I don't know, some boy." I said, shrugging and looking the the ground with a shit eating smile.

"Who!?" Jarred exclaimed immediately. I roll my eyes and look up glancing at Kellin who was wearing a smirk as well before averting my gaze.

"Just some boy, don't worry about it, nosey." I said and that was the end of that because we were all at the door to the dining room. I held the door for everyone,Jared and Lynn entering first and Jared giving me a knowing smile. Then Emily came through and before Kellin could could pass, I grabbed his hand and shut the door. I took a quick look around not seeing anyone near us before giving him a nice long kiss.

When we separated he smiled at me. "You sure have gotten better at that."

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It's band practice right now and we're going over Kellins part. I keep getting up by getting caught up in him, watching the way his lips brush against the microphone, the way he closes his eyes and pulses the beat behind his back with his hands. I'm mesmerized by all his mannerisms.

Soon though, Lynn calls time which signals us to all head to dinner. Through the whole thing, I'm zoned out, only able to see Kellin and his cute-ness. His adorable smile and the way he squints in annoyance when Jared say stupid things. I barely eat my food, stuck on him and his movements, anticipating what's to come soon.

After dinner Kellin and I ran off like normal, our phones displaying the time 6:32 pm back at out smiling faces. I was smiling because I knew in a matter of an hour or so Kellin would be mine. I wanted to ask him as the sunset was at its prettiest point, where his skin would be reflecting all the beautiful colors that just add on to his excellence.

We engaged in small talk on the way there. The path was pretty obvious, our feet having pretty much paved a way in the past days. Once we got there, it was roughly six forty five and I was shaking with excitement. I did my best to keep it down as I hooked my thumbs around my shorts, yanking them off with my boxers toe change them for some blue swim trunks.

Kellin did the same and then giggled for no reason as he grabbed my hands with his. He walked me into the water with some kind of devious smile, but I had no clue what for. Soon I found out as he leg go of my hands (once we were deep enough our feet didn't touch) and dunked my head below water without warning.

Soon, we were engaged in a full out war of head dunkings. And of course, like most things Kellin and I did, it ended in kisses all over his face and all over mine. If the two of us were wearing pink lipstick, our faces would be a red hue, and what a Sight we'd be.

The next time I looked up, I saw the sun was begging its journey, descending down the sky. I nudged kellin. "Race you to the clearing up there." And he was off. The easiest way to get kellin to do anything is to make it a challenge it seems.

So within no time he had beat me up there to our veiw from the cliff, our towels set out on the dirt.we sat with our feet dangling over, leaning back on our hands. The sky was just beginning  to wet its brushes on Kellins pores and I watched in awe as the colors appeared on his skin. He looked over at me from his laid back position there next to me. "What?"

I smiled. I saw how his skin was filled with oranges and pinks and yellows, which told me it was time. So I just did it. I leaned in close to him for a kiss and stopped right before our lips touched.  His eyes fluttered shut and I took a second to admire him before saying, "Kellin will you be my boyfriend?"

And he just closed the space between us.

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I'm sorry this has taken so long. If you read the authors note you know why but there's more that I don't feel like telling you guys. It just gets harder and harder. Idk. I know that I had five or six really really good months, so now it's time for five or six bad ones. That's generally how my life goes. So I just have to keep my head up and look foreword to those five or six months of great that I get soon. They'll find me soon enough. I'm sorry for how slow these updates are coming. I'm just not mentally alright currently. I'm tired, not sleep tired more like tired of fighting. But it's okay. I'm okay, always will be. In a couple months this won't matter. I just remember that to keep on. It just takes time. Time time time. If I've learned anything it's that. That time doesn't heal but it makes you forget, it makes the things move to the basement of my wide three story mind. But I have to help move those boxes down those stairs, how else will they get there? It takes work on my part as well, if that makes sense. Anyways, I'm sorry I'm just feelin a kinda way and I only have one friend whose good at listening to me say this tuff and knows what to say and I don't wanna burden her too bad ya know. I have lots of close friends but most of them don't know what to say, it makes them feel awkward so I don't wanna bother them. Most the time, I don't want advice, I just want comfort. I want a hug and a sincere "it's gunna be alright in the end Bailey." Even if that's not certain. I just need that reassurance. And most people don't get that. Anayways. Sorry for the wait.