Crescent Moon (A HP fanfic and a student/teacher romance)

Chapter twelve: A new Start

A/N: I promised a chapter on Friday and I lied. I'm sorry about that. I've been very sick and feeling shitty and even though this chapter isn't great, it would have been a lot worse if I had just tried to write something and uploaded it. Anyways, this one is more of a filler, just trying to shed a little bit of light on what is going on in Cassidy's head after all that she's been through. Also, I don't intend on including much og J.K Rowling's plot, because it is completely hers and I don't want this story to just be a retelling of hers. But I want to include the main parts. 

This chapter isn't very long and even though I have failed your trust I promise to put another one, a better one, up early next week, so don't start your angry mob just yet! and I have to tell you how very thankful I am for your comments. It's really because of them I stopped wallowing in a cold-related self pity and actually wrote this chapter, so please keep on giving me your feedback and telling me what you really think.  Now I'll stop! Enjoy :D

Chapter 12 – A new start

Professor Lupin and I walked back to Hogwarts together at a slow pace. I could feel his eyes on me but I couldn’t look into his. Most of the way was completely silent. It was cold and it looked like it would rain any minute. My hoodie wasn’t enough to keep me warm so I pulled the collar of my hoodie up to my chin and folded my arms over me chest. The smell of autumn filled my nostrils and I could see leaves which had fallen to the ground. I wasn’t capable of appreciating how beautiful my environment was because I was numb. As soon as I had woken up in Lupin’s arms with mascara down my face I had shut out my feelings. I didn’t continue crying and I didn’t scream or run away, I just kept a blank expression because I didn’t know what to express. Everything had gone to shit. My mother disowned me. I wasn’t even sure what I did, but I knew that if I lost to a stone-hearted monster with anger issues, I must have done something wrong.

            “It would’ve been easier to just apparate to Hogwarts, but I guess I’m not the headmaster,” Lupin said and chuckled nervously. I didn’t even look at him. I just continued walking and felt like such a bitch but I didn’t care. I didn’t want to talk to anyone.

            We finally got to Hogwarts and Lupin walked me to the Fat Lady. “Cassi – Miss Blake, if you need to talk to someone about this – uh – this situation…or just anything at all, my door is always open, day and night. I just… I just don’t want you to think that you’re alone and... yeah. Just talk to me if there’s anything,” he said and walked off after telling the Fat Lady the password so I could walk in. The gentleman’s way to open a door for a lady in the wizarding world. It was weird that Lupin didn’t have the confidence he usually had and he didn’t use his words properly.

            I knew there were still a couple of minutes left of the school day so there weren’t many in the common room. I decided to not go up to my bed because if I did that I wouldn’t leave it for the next few weeks. I curled up in a red armchair in front of the fire and stared into it. A few minutes later I could hear Gryffindor students start coming through the fat lady. They were talking and laughing and I couldn’t help but feel like life was going on for everyone but me. I had no idea what to do now. I didn’t have a family anymore, nor did I have a home to go to. Of course I knew I had my new friends but I’ve only known them for less than two months and I couldn’t possibly ask to live with them. I’m able to stay at Hogwarts until the end of the school year so I have time to figure something out.

            “Hey, where’ve you been? You were gone when I woke up but I didn’t see you in class,” Fred said as he sat down on the sofa which was beside the armchair. He moved in and gave me peck on the lips and a smile. I smiled back, tried to convince myself that I was happy. Happy, Cassy, just smile and be happy.