Eat a Bag Of Dicks! (Joshler) [✓]

16) the first date

writing this made me realize i'm really lonely pls love me

oh and a lil wee trigger warning for panic attack, be careful, lovebugs.

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deep, deep, deep breaths still don't calm tyler down.

it's 16:03 and tyler can't breathe.

he can not breathe, he just can't.

he's trying to focus on debby's manicured hands combing through his hair, and her soothing voice that seems to be far away.

he's scared, and he's shaking, and he's crying, and he can no longer feel debby's white painted fingernails in his hair.

his heart is beating fast and hard in his chest, and he clutches it in pain, gasping loudly although he can't hear it.

opening his squeezed shut eyes to a mere squint, a bright light slowly cleared into his fogged vision, and he registered a hand rubbing soothing circles on his back.

"-reathe, baby, breathe. there ya' go," her voice is faded and quiet, but he can hear her.

the pain in his chest subsides, and the hand on his back moves to grip his shoulder loosely.

his heart rate returns to its regular pace.

he wipes his tear-damp face and gives debby a shaky smile,

"med time, yet?"

debby laughs lightly, shaking her head at the boy, "i suppose," she jokes, getting him a glass of water and two blue pills.

he downs them eagerly, sighing a shaky breath, "let's get me ready for this date,"

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"trever!"

"josh!"

"trever!"

"josh!"

"trevor!"

"jo-! wait a minute, did you just say trevor?"

"yeah, how'd you know? they literally sound the same,"

"do i need to go on this rant again? my name is trever, you lowlife bast-"

"i know, i just said that so you would stop mimicking me and help me, please," josh whines.

trever rolls his eyes but soon pouts, "i wasn't mimicking you, i thought we were excitedly saying each others name's because we're besties,"

josh rolls his eyes, "help me!"

trever rolls his eyes, "dude, you're fine! just-" he stops, grabbing josh's hand from where it picks at his elbow and sighs,

"bring a fidget, please?"

josh sighs as trever brings him into the bathroom to clean his elbow.