The royal soldier (Levi x reader)

Episode 6

-Wh-What?...-you said to yourself while reading the letter. It was an invitation... To a funeral. Your brother funeral. Your vision started to blur because of the tears. You started breathing quickly. You couldn't catch a breath. You put a hand on your chest and looked again at the letter.
-It's...tomorrow?-you said still couldn't breath.
Levi. Levi got a letter too. And he said he will be leaving tomorrow. What if it's the same invitation? Your family is likely to invite the most important people to something like this. What will he think of you if he sees you there? You will have to face your father. Only the thought makes you wanna throw up. You lied on your bed.
-I have to go. He's my brother. I have to go today. Maybe he won't recognize me there. But if I go tomorrow I would have to ride with him.
You wiped your tears and quickly made your way to his office. You knocked.
-What do you want?-he said annoyed.
-It's (N).
-Come in.-his tone changed.
-I wanted to talk.-you said closing the door.
-Then talk.
-I would like to go visit my old squad. On our days off. But.. I would like to live today.
-Sure. Go ahead.-he said and waved his hand telling you to go away.
-Okey. Thank you.-you said and left.
He won't notice. I changed my surname in the papers when I joined the corpus. It will be alright. You thought as you walked to ready your horse.
-Where are you going?
-Oh! Eld. You scared me. I-I'm going to visit my old squad.
-Today?
-Yeah. I talked to Levi.
-Well okay then. Have fun.
-Thank you. I will.-you put a fake smile and got on your horse.
You rode to the capital till the sun got down. You decided to stay in some hotel for this night and tomorrow visit your family home. You started to shake as you thought of it.
-On bed please. For one night.
-Here you go.-said the receptionist handing you the keys.
-Thank you.
You lied on your bed and tried to fall asleep. I will just go there and endure it. It's only one day. Right? It will be okey. You thought as your eyes closed.
Next day you have been woke up by your own scream. Your heart was pounding like crazy. You took a shower to wash away the nightmare and walked out of the hotel. It was pretty close to your house. You took a deep breath and tried to calm yourself. You you made it to the gate. There was to guards outside.
-I-I'm here for the funeral.
-Invitation?-you handed him the invitation.- You are too early.
-I-I know. Lord Blackrose is my father.-he looked at me strangely.
-Wait here.-he took of to the building.
It was a big manor with beautiful garden outside. The gardeners where running circles around it checking if everything is as it should be for the funeral. Your family wasn't too religious so it held place in here.
-I'm so sorry miss.-he said bowing deeply. When he returned.- I had no idea. Please forgive me.
-It's okey.-you said as you walked into the yard.
You stood in front of the doors with your heart trying to rip off your chest. The doors opened.
-(N).- it was your younger brother.
-Fillip.
-We didn't thought you would come. It would be better for you if you wouldn't.
-I had to. He was my brother too. What happened?
-He got a cancer. Doctors couldn't do anything. He passed four days ago.
You remembered how you were small and how he used to look after you. You remembered all the time you spend together.
-I told the maid to get you a dress.
-Thank you.
-Go to my old room. It's free now.
-Okey.-you said and started to make your way to the room praying to not bump in your parents. You found out that you are scared. It's only one day. You repeated to yourself. You made it to the room which in was already laying a long black dress. It was really beautiful. It had long sleeves with frills and it was covered in black, material roses in random places. Next to it lied a black veil. So they don't want me to be seen too huh? You put on a dress and put your hair up to hide their length. Next to the bed there was a pair of black high heels. That's a good idea as well. You will seem taller and the heel will be covered by the dress. You put them on and walk a few steps. -It's not that bad. I thought I would forget how to walk in those.-You steps in your room waiting for the people to start coming. Your nerves were on edge. You thought you will faint from stress in a moment. When you heard people started crowding downstairs you waited a bit longer, put on the black veil and walked out. There was a ton of people talking and laughing. They made a party of your brothers funeral. Typical. Although he was their favorite child and the next to be a great Lord. You saw your brother and walked to him.
-(N). The ceremony will take place in the garden. Just you know. Follow the crowd and don't attract attention to yourself.
You nodded and walked away. Suddenly someone grabbed your arm and harshly turned you around.
-(N)!-it was your mother. She had an angry look on her face.- I thought Fillip would sent you the invitation.-she whispered through her teeth- You will not get close to us. You will stay on the back and WON'T talk to anybody.-she let go of your arm and walked away.
You grabbed your hand to prevent it from shaking. You started walking to the door to the garden where everybody headed but you noticed a tall man looking like commander Erwin from the back. Next to him walked Levi. He had a black shirt an jacket. You slowed down for them to walk away. Through the ceremony you weren't crying. You weren't even thinking. You just stood there with emptiness in your head. When it ended everybody started to move to the main hall where they would eat, drink and laugh not even thinking why they actually came here. You followed them decided to turn away inside and go to your room. When you walked the hallway and turned right you suddenly stopped. There was standing a big man with his hands crossed. Your father.
-Father..-you whispered.
He slapped you in the cheek. You bumped into the wall and the veil fell on the ground.
-How dare you even come here. After you joined the military... It's a disgrace to all of us.
-He was my brother...-you mumbled. Your legs started to shake.
-And? You think as he died it's right for you to take his place and be the next head of this family?! Your dead to us.
-I wouldn't do that...
-Sure you wouldn't-he grabbed your arm.-Don't ever try to think you are welcomed here.
-I'm not..
-You trying to talk back to me?!
-N-No I-I wasn't...
He hit you in the face so hard you fell on the ground and hurt your head. Your hair untied and fell on your back. You covered your mouth to prevent yourself from screaming, closed your eyes and waited for another hit.
-You shouldn't treat a Lady like that my Lord.-you heard a familiar voice. You opened your eyes but forced yourself not to look at him. Your hair covered your face.
-She is no Lady. Get back to the hall Captain.
-I will. With her.
-She is not going there.
-Well. Then I will escort her to the door if she is leaving already.
-Fine.-you hear your father walking away.
You were still shaking like crazy. You couldn't let him recognize you if he didn't already. This would make things even worse.
-Miss?-he asked.
You didn't know what to do so you just stayed quiet. He would recognize your voice. You tried to stand up looking down so the hair would cover your face. Your head started spinning. Levi held your arm as you were to fall to the side again. You started walking. When you got down the stairs suddenly everything started to hit your mind. You started to remember as you were a child. Your father... and the death of your brother. Tears started falling from your face. You started breathing quickly and you covered your mouth again to hide the sob.
-Miss?-he asked as he faced you.
Your head started to spin again. You saw black and fell to his arms loosing consciousness for a second. You felt the warm of his body. You couldn't hold it inside any longer. You started to cry quietly.
-(N)?-he whispered.
You looked at his face. His eye brows got higher his mouth opened as like he wanted to say something.
-L-Levi..I..-he touched your face where your father hit you.
-Your lips...-he whispered and passed his finger on the scratch on your lower lip from the punch. You opened your mouth slightly. He moved even closer to you. You closed your eyes whose dropped more tears down your cheeks and felt his lips touching yours. You kissed him back but couldn't take your mind of the though of your father...and what he was doing to you.
You turned away and touched your lips.
-(N)!-it was your brother.
You moved away from Levi and looked at him running down the stairs.
-(N)...-he looked at your face.-I'm so sorry. I shouldn't invite you here. Father... he. He will think that you will want to take my place. He-He can do anything. He can hurt you...
-I will be okay.-you said whiling your tears.-I-I won't come here again till you will become the Lord Blackrose.
-But people. They saw you here today. It can be enough for him to...
-I will be fine.-you whispered.-Goodbye Fillip.- You gave him a blank smile and turned away.
Levi was waiting by the door.
-You want me to go with you?
-N-No. I will make it. You better go back so my father doesn't get suspicious. And... please don't tell anybody.- you looked at the floor. Part of your hair fell to your face. You saw his hand flinch.
-Be careful.
-I will.-you said as you walked out of the Blackrose manor.