This Isn't Real (Carl Grimes fanfic)

Ch. 13

I woke up the next day, and immediately ran outside. I saw the fence problem was fixed. sort of. More poles kept if up.

I knew I could have down something. I could have helped. I'm the one to blame. Not Rick, Carl, Daryl, or anyone else.

I wish things were back to the way they used to be. The only thing that keeps me going every day, is knowing that there are people around me that I am proud to call my family.

I honestly couldn't ask for a better group. A light breeze flew across my face, as I sat down. The tall grass tickled my arms.

I picked at the grass, and sat there In silence. It felt good to just sit there with no distractions. I blocked out all that I knew was happening.

My silence was interrupted when Carl sat next to me. "hey." He said. I just stared up at the sky. "Are you upset?" he asked.

A few seconds later I answered. "no, I've just been thinking." I replied. I laid down flat on the ground, and continued to think.

I then put my hand on Carl's shoulder, and gently pulled him down. We laid there for a few minutes until I thought we should have gone inside by now.

I wasn't exactly sure what was going on in there, but I was tired so I took a nap. When I woke up, I found out Rick and Carol went on another supply run.

This can't be good. I was really hoping Rick wouldn't find out what Carol did. Lizzie, Mika, and I thought of her as a mother figure, and I didn't want that to change.

"Morning sleepy head." Carl said while entering my cell. I jumped, a little startled, and then we began to laugh.

"What were you thinking about?" Carl asked. "everything." I said. "what do you mean by everything?" he said curiously.

"You know... I'm not really sure." I answered. "c'mon just tell me." he said.
"I was just thinking about life before this."

He was nodding, and then sat down. "I'm not glad this happened, but I'm not mad about it. If this didn't happen, I would have never met you." I said with a tear.

He pulled me I to a hug and said,
"please don't leave." "I'll never leave." I whispered. We pulled away, he gave me a kiss on the cheek, and then left.