The decision to move in with Marcus hung in my mind as I woke unexpectedly early the following morning. I couldn't really imagine what it would be like to actually live with Marcus and only having each other to depend on. Although I am twenty four years old, I guess I'm quite independent anyway.
I stretched my arms out while still in my bed and turned over to my bedside table. I found that I had received a text on my mobile. It was from Marcus.
'When are we going to start looking at flats then? Lol, I'm excited xx'
I smiled at his positive attitude towards moving in together, he always seemed so optimistic about everything, a quality I simply loved about him. However as I began to think of my future with him, a small face with large eyebrows faded into my thoughts. Alfie.
I couldn't deny that I was happy to being moving forward in my relationship with Marcus but deep in the crevices of my mind, I thought about Alfie. I wanted it to stop urgently. I was not going to taint three years with Marcus just for some stupid little feeling that I had when I was with Alfie.
Besides from what I could gather from last night, he with evidently with Ruth and I was pleased for him. He deserved someone who made him happy, because he was after all a very sweet, funny and charming person.
I then paused as my mobile bleeped a second time, however this time it was Louise.
'Are you moving in with Marcus?! Holy crap, that's great!'
'Yeah it's great isn't it?' I typed back almost immediately.
But as I hit send, I stopped for a moment. My thoughts wandered and I started to think about what my future what would be like but with Alfie is Marcus' place. I imagined him making me laugh every single day and telling me that I'm an absolute weirdo but he loved me anyway and that I-
I had to stop this. I really had to stop this. It wasn't right and I knew that. I shook my head in frustration. There was no reason for me to be in love with Alfie. Apart from a few hidden stares and funny moments, what really was there? I hated how couldn't stop thinking about him.
My phone then bleeped for a third time that morning but this time it was Alfie himself. My heart skipped a beat for no reason whatsoever as I opened the text.
'Marcus has just told me the news. Congrats.'
Wow, Marcus was really spreading the news of our upcoming move around fast. I gazed at the text for a prolonged moment; I couldn't tell if Alfie was genuinely happy about the news. The blunt full stop at the end suggested otherwise.
'Yeah, it's great' I texted back simply. I didn't want to seem over enthusiastic, Marcus and I hadn't even discussed it in much detail so I didn't want to act overly happy when there was a possibility it may not happen. What was I thinking? Of course it was going to happen, there was no way I was going to ruin Marcus' cheery mood; I had been the one who had suggested it after all.
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Tainted Secrets (Zarcus/Zalfie)
FanfictionZoe believed that she and Marcus would always be together. But when someone new enters her life, she begins to feel something she cannot possibly ignore. Surrounded by lies and deception, it will definitely not be an easy journey, as Zoe experiences...