Poetry of 2015-2017

08.25.17

I feel so stupid
I feel so confuse
I don't know why I abuse myself
With my own thoughts crawling inside my head
Laid awake at 4 in the morning on my bed
I can't help it but keep thinking about it
I can't help with how I feel
I can't believe this is happening for real
Is it so wrong for me to love someone so much?
My heart feels like it's been crunch up
Into tiny pieces
With all the memories we've incorporated
With all the times we said I love you
God, why does this have to happened?
I hope that saying that if it's meant to be, it'll come back happens.
Because my life depended on him
He was all that I am
Maybe me being confuse with all this, there's a sign saying that it is meant to be.
But have to keep working on it
Fighting through all this might bring us to a light at the end of the tunnel.
I wish I didn't have to bottle this up