Finding: Me [Completed]

Chappie 37

JEONGHAN POV

Shit... I don't like this.

I cursed silently as I listened to my manager talk.

HYUNRA POV

It's almost 11 at night and I just got back from the training room. I haven't been seeing Jeonghan much recently since he just had his comeback and he has his performances coming up.

I'm happy for him but I miss him a little.

I massaged my sore shoulders and arms as I slouched lazily on the sofa.

"So tired." I groaned to myself.

I want to talk to someone but no one's here, it feels kinda lonely. Jeonghan's still in his practice room working his butt off and I bet he's going to spend his night there again.

Dating an idol is hard. Then I realised something I didn't thought of nuch before.

He's an idol. He has fans. Fans are crazy. And he's not going to be home a lot.

I couldn't help but feel a little jealous when I thought about him being near all his fans. They are good but I just don't want him to get too close, you know?

I sighed tiredly.

How did I not think of this earlier?

Next day he's gonna come to me and tell me he's going out if Korea and not coming back again. I joked to myself.

Honestly, I don't believe in long distance relationships. It's hard to see your partner and talk to him in person.

I hope that doesn't happen to us.

I love him so much, I don't want to let him go.

My eyelids grew heavier as I fell deep asleep on the sofa with my thoughts.

-

I woke up when the glaring rays of sunlight hit face. I yawned and stretched, then I collapsed back onto the sofa again.

I then noticed a thin wool blanket was on me, covering most of my body.

I don't remember using a blanket before I dozed off.

Was it Jeonghan?

I smiled and hugged the blanket closer to me, snuggling it closer to my face.

Is he still home? The house seems dead quiet and I sighed again. He must have left again.

Just then, I heard a door click. I turn around head to look behind the sofa. I saw Jeonghan emerge out of his room and I subconsciously grinned.

"You're up, morning." He said sweetly, he had his outside clothes on and he looked like he was about to go out.

"Oh, yea. I have something to say." His smiled disappeared and he grew a little bit serious.

"What? What is it?" I asked curiously, why does he look glum all of a sudden?

Please don't be something serious... Please don't be something serious... I chanted and prayed on the inside.

"I'm not going to be home often, you know why right?" He said.

I let out a sigh of relief, "That? Oh, I noticed. It's alright, just don't work too hard and take breaks." I smiled, I bet each comebacks mean a lot to him, I don't want him to worry about me.

"That's the thing, I'm not even going to be in Korea soon." He muttered and looked straight into my eyes.

My worst nightmare came true.

"What?" I gulped, not wanting to believe what he said.

"I'm having a tour soon and it's going to take 5 months and then I'll probably also have a lot of other things to do out of this place, Seoul." He gloomily told me.

Oh god, not seeing him for that long? It's not one year, but...

"When are you leaving?" I whispered softly but enough for him to hear.

"Next Monday."

That...that's only 4 days left...

I crumbled down onto the sofa and covered my face.

I sighed, life sucks.

We both kept quiet for awhile until the silence was broken by my phone's ringing.

I slowly picked it up with the little energy I had left and put it to my ears without seeing who called me.

"Hello? This is Mr. Byun."

I was about to sluggishly answer the caller before I gasped as I realised who it is.

"O-oh. Good morning Mr. Byun." I greeted nervously.

In the corner of my eye, I saw Jeonghan walking nearer and nearer to me.

"I have a few things to say."

He paused before speaking again.

"First of all, I want to say that your progress is extremely good and I've never seen anyone do as well as you. You've already signed our contract, so I would like you to debut very soon.

Your debut date us not confirmed but you should be prepared for your debut. I hope you also understand that debuting would mean that you have to travel around Korea a little.

I won't tell you much about that since you should have read that in the contract that you signed. Thank you for your time, goodbye." With that, he hung up and I out my phone away.

I tried to digest what he just said since he didn't give me a chance to speak or ask questions.

I blinked a few times before reality clicked again.

"What?" I asked Jeonghan, kinda forgetting what he jusr told me.

"What?" He repeating and shrugged.

"Why are you asking me? What did Mr. Byun say?" He asked.

"Debut." I could only say one word.

Jeonghan gasped and grinned widely.

"Good for you! See? You do have a talent, you are debuting so quickly. Is that even possible?" He asked himself before shrugging.

"But debuting would also mean... you'll get super busy..." His grin died again and he trailed off silently.

There was no need for words, we both knew what's going to happen. The mood felt heavy and depressing again.

"Right." I said sadly.

"Can't we have a long distance relationship?"

"I don't know..." I was on the verge of tears. I felt so upset and annoyed. We barely got together for 2 months and now we are going to be separated?

"Then, can we just enjoy the last few days together?"

I nodded and gave a weak smile, he returned it but he still looked broken.

I'm right, life sucks and it's going to keep smacking me in the face.

Author notes 📝 :

Hyunra's right.. Life sucks, my life has been sucking so bad recently😔

But here's an update in the morning since I'm out in the afternoon (I'm performing😁 wish me luck, hahah 😂)

Anyways, I hope you will have a great day ahead of you!! ♥

:)