Song for the chapter: 'Greek Tragedy' The Wombats
Waking up this morning was much more difficult than usual. My brother is suspended, Lou is away for a family thing. So I'm stuck to experience and deal with the drama and stares relating to yesterday's fiasco.
I want to stay home, but my mother refuses, ignoring my begs and pleads.
Your brother is already staying home Nicole, I'm not trying to look like a careless mother. Now get going your going to miss the buss!"
Even after an argument last night, she has no guilt in pushing my buttons. She has no remorse in continuing to treat me like shit.
Last night consisted of my mother screaming at Niall, but it all seemed to resort back to me.
You should have let her figure this out on her own!
Nicole, you'll be the reason one day I have a heart attack!
I understand you're going through a tough time, but it's not fair to take your brother and everybody you love down with you!
I replay the words in my head, the stabbing pain getting deeper and deeper.
I feel worse about what I said, my mother not only making me feel guilty for my words, but reassuring they were accurate.
I'm sorry mother. I'm sorry I'm a constant reminder of dad. I'm sorry you got me, the extra child you didn't ask for. I'm sorry I just make you hate your life so much, that I remind you of the frustration and heart ache you've experienced."
The words burned my throat as they came out, but sent chills down my spine at the same time.
Nothing hurt more than seeing her face sink, almost in embarrassment of me thinking those things.
But she said nothing, she didn't deny the statement, and just walked away.
I feel a pull of my headphone, and I'm distracted from my thoughts.
Liam meets me eyes, his big brown eyes shining as he smiles.
"Let me guess, Lord Huron?" He grabs my phone, flicking the screen awake to see what I'm listening to.
"No, Ed Sheeran actually." He nods, giving me a smirk.
"You have fantastic taste in music, I must say." I smile, thanking him. We continue to walk, and I wrap my headphones around my phone.
"Are you heading to the math wing?" I nod.
"Good, I'll walk with you." I nervously pull on my backpack straps, avoiding eye contact.
"How have you been?" I meet his eyes once he finishes, in attempt to read what he means by that question.
"I'm guessing you know about yesterday?" He gives me a shrug of his shoulders and shy smile, answering my question.
"It's a small school, talk travels unfortunately. I just wanted to make sure you were okay."
"I'm okay." I ignore the pressure in my throats and tightness or my chest.
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