Kagehina - What love's suppose to feel like

Chapter twenty two - Adults

"Sorry for getting upset, none of this would've happened if I would've just .." Kenma shook his head, not meeting Kageyamas look.

"I'm very bad at this, but I came here to apologize too.." Kageyama said and suddenly didn't know where to put his hands. "I can't say that I know what you've been through because I don't know what you've been through.."

"It's okay, I overreacted" Kenma put his legs down, he was now sitting normally. It felt weird seeing him sit normally, Kageyama couldn't recall ever seeing him sit like that.

"I have to admit though, I barely know what it's like to have what I want for once.." Kageyama scooted closer. "Hinata is a blessing" A tear rolled down Kenmas cheek as Kageyama spoke. "He is probably the best thing about me"

"You're not helping" Kuroo implied.

"Let him finish" Kenma said and closed his eyes.

"I know what it feels like to long for something and not resting until you have it. I know what it feels like to feel empty without it. Like you're not yourself without it. Like you don't belong, and I feel for you. I really do"

"Yes?" Kenma was growing impatient, he knew his feelings and he didn't want to be reminded. 

"You seem like a nice guy, Kenma" Kageyama genuinely didn't know how to save this, brain, quick, think of good things to say! 

"I wish I could help you.."

"Are you done?" Kenma finally looked him in the face, that look was saying everything. Kenma was tired of Kageyamas existence right now. The air was so tense you could almost touch it.

"Yes! Um, have a good night" Kageyama rose up and just realized what he said. It sounded so much better in his head! 

Kuroo opened the door for him and glared right through his soul all the way out. Kageyama was feeling very uncomfortable, but in a way he kinda deserved it. His death glare from earlier was not to play with.

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The night was almost morning, Kageyama realized he has no idea what time it was. The grass was cold and wet against the thin fabric of his shoes. Completely still, the camp laid in peace and the sound of crickets and frogs filled the air. A deep 'hoo' could also be heard from an owl in the distance. It felt almost a little spooky.

"Well, that could've gone a lot better..." Kageyama thought to himself. Karasunos dormitory was completely dark except for one window who shone a yellow light onto the grass. A tiny window in the top right corner, the window to the bathroom.

Kageyama stepped inside the dormitory, leaving his dirty shoes at the door. The lights reacted to his movements and flickered on. Tanakas and Nishinoyas room was the only one with the door slightly agape, Takana snored loudly and it almost echoed out in the hallway. There was one other sound that could be heard, but Kageyama could quite place it.

Like a muffled noise, like people moving, grunting and breathing fast. Could it be?

Every step closer to the bathroom felt, wrong, inappropriate. Moans and quiet laughter, followed by a 'schh' and more giggling. It really sounded like whatever was going on in there wasn't meant for more than four eyes. But curiosity got the best of him and..

He slid the door open, Daichi ran some water on his hands and tried to look innocent while Suga sat on the sink, completely frozen. Kageyama locked eyes with Suga, they stared at each other for a while.

"He, heeyy, Kageyama, what the fuck are you doing here?" Daichi pretended like he just noticed him as he turned around and smiled. Instantly getting a hit from Suga in the back and a glare that had 'don't use language like that with the kids!' written all over it. Suga crossed his legs and awkwardly placed his hands on them.

"What time is it?" Yet another sentence that sounded way better in Kageyama's head. Daichi took his phone out of his pocket and pressed a button on the side. 

".. Three forty-five. It's late, we should go"

Receiving another hit and a whisper from Suga, looking down at himself and back up into Daichis eyes. Still not being able to say anything to Kageyama.

"You should go." Daichi said at last and Kageyama got the hint. "On my way!" he sighed and closed the door behind him.

What did he just witness? Both men were still fully clothed and Suga was on the sink.. 

Then it hit him. 

Kageyama turned red and put a hand over his face. He mouthed Oh my god! silently and looked back over his shoulder. No noises could be heard, maybe they were still waiting for him to leave. Then leave he will! Kageyama hurried through the hallway back to his dorm and tried to forget what he just saw.

Opening the door carefully to his dorm to try and not wake Hinata up. A Kageyama shaped shadow fell on the bunk before him. Hinata slept in the top bunk and nothing but a little tuft of bright red hair and parts of his feet could be seen. Kageyama smiled to himself and climbed up the tiny ladder to get a better look at him. 

Facing the wall, Hinata made tiny snores and Kageyama watched his chest rise and fall. He couldn't see his face too well so, carefully, he tried to scoot closer without waking Hinata up.

He failed.

Hinatas eyes opened and his head rose from the pillow. "..Kageyama..?"

"Hey" was all Kageyama could get out of his mouth.

"You took your time.." Hinata let his head fall back into place, he was too tired to even care right now.

"I love you" Kageyama kissed Hinatas hip over the covers.

"I love you too" Hinata looked down at him and smiled "Now go the fuck to sleep"

Kageyama couldn't hold it in, he started laughing and tried to keep quiet by placing a hand over his mouth. "I'm serious, it's like four AM" Hinata giggled with him. Kageyama reached over the smaller boy and kissed his cheek, Hinata cupped his boyfriends face in response as a sign of equilateral love. Then, Kageyama finally climbed down the small ladder, got undressed and fell asleep in his bottom bunk.

"You're right" he thought "You probably are the best thing about me.."

(A/N Oh my god guys, it's been so long! Am I alive? Answer is yes! I've been editing ALL OF THE CHAPTERS in this story because reading it back, some parts were just WAAAYYY too cringy!  

So if you want to, you can re'read this whole story.. Or don't! And go use that time on something important instead. I also want to say thank you for still reading! I see every single comment and it warms my heart that you still want to see more.

Have a great day!)

//Tadpole