Riley's Art Book/Journal

woooh I'm a jackass-

I just feel like going to school tomorrow and being a total douche to my ex-

She told me she felt awkward around me and didn't want to talk to me due to being in fear of her mom noticing I talk to her (her mom is way too over protective). She told me she would be friend's with me if she was allowed to. But I call bs on that- She doesn't care about me at all

So, I just wanted to sit at the table she sits at, and talk to my friend Ali who sits with her. And then be like "Oh, sorry, am I making you awkward? I'll just leave now. Not that you care anyways~"

But that's extremely flippin' rude, so I won't do it-

But I just hate her atm and want to make her suffer-

Like, I shed so many tears for her. I thought about her every.single.day.

I tried to think of how to be a better friend, and try to forget everything for her. To start over while I loved her.

And what do I get?

I get told she doesn't want to see me ever. She doesn't want any eye contact from eachother, or for us to speak.

She just doesn't care about me.

And now I sound like a heartbroken little teenager.

Oh-

Wait-

So yeah- I want to make her life a living hell, but I'm too kind for that-

The sad thing is, she was one of the three friends I had left-

Now I only have two. And one is moving to a different state.

Yay, life~

Don't worry about me though. I'm completely stable. My emotions are in check, and I won't start having mental breakdowns anytime soon (hopefully)

I apologize for this completely useless and stupid post.

Guess that's why it's random-

Also, I have my whole locker in my bookbag-

It's vvvvvvvvv heavy-

Like it comtains:

3 2'' binders
2 1 1/2'' binders
1 5-subject spiral notebook
1 Algebra 1 textbook
1 Physical Science textbook

It's way heavier than it sounds, trust me-