Nobody to Love

A Fanboy of Suga

I totally forgot about the stupid fucking assignment I had to do. I spent the last hour at work rushing to do the entire thing because I only remembered about it last minute. Thankfully I got it done and turned it in to my shit eating boss. I'm way too pissed off right now to just sit at home and do nothing. I want to get up and do something different or productive. I know it's only been a week but ever since my mind has been caught up on the topic of love, I just had this urge to live my life a little more. I don't know why or what it is but it's been getting me out the house so I guess I'm okay with it. If going home right now isn't an option and sure as hell staying at work isn't one either, then I guess I can go to KurooKat.
"Well, well, well, look who's back."
"Hey, Kuroo. Table for 1 please."
"Yes table for 2, follow me," he says as we both walk to the same booth from last time. "So what do you think."
"Of what?"
"Of Suga! I told you to come and sure enough you did. So obviously you have to thank me and tell me how great I am for inviting you."
"Sure, you can take half of the 'thank you's. It was mostly because of these two women I walked with to the bar."
"Oooh is someone here good with the ladies?"
"No, not really."
"I can tell since you just left them outside while you walked in the bar and got to see Suga."
"It's because Bokuto told me to! I didn't know he'd just let me in and shut the door on all those other ladies."
"That's all thanks to me by the way. I told him to do that."
"Well then there you go, another thank you to your help of getting me in on one of Suga's shows."
"You can watch another tonight as well."
"Oh he's going to be there again?"
"Yeah that's what's planned."
"Um, sure then."
"Do you even know where the bar is?"
"Honestly no, last time I just followed those two women going there."
"Don't say that, you sound creepy. And it's fine you can stay here till we close and we'll walk together."

Another one of Suga's shows. Going to the first one was absolutely incredible, I didn't think I'd be able to go see him again. Since I walked with Kuroo, we arrived at the bar an hour before it opens. The four of us from last week talk some more as we set up the place for the show. Since Asahi is allowing me to be here before Crows opens, I'm forced to help but I don't mind. In fact, Asahi is the one who told me most of the history of the bar.
"The three of us are all good friends. When I opened this bar about 4 years ago, I was struggling to find bartenders since my place is kind of hidden in the corner of the city. But Kuroo and Bokuto both came here and said they'd work for me. I was shocked to see the two of them come in here with no questions asked and straight to the point that they're willing to work for me. When doing the interview I was a little bit intimidated from their looks but their personalities just goes to show they're kind of idiots."
"Hey!," Kuroo and Bokuto yell at the same time.
"Sorry, I mean loveable, kind-hearted idiots."
"Ok last question. If you're the owner of this place, why were sitting at the back of the bar instead of maybe behind the counter or something?"
"I'd like to see the performance from the audiences point of view. Also, I keep tabs on the door. Sometimes a fangirl will run in and start confessing her love to Suga in front of everyone during a song. I don't want to be mean and lock the doors to keep them out, but the fangirls can take it too far sometimes."
"Hmm, I see. That makes more sense."
"But you don't have to sit in the back this time, you can have a front row seat."
"Oh, thank you."

   The show doesn't start till 10 pm. The wait felt like forever but the four of us talked and they got to know me better since I'm still basically a stranger. Again like last time, the lights dimmed and everyone started to quiet down, then Suga gets on stage and it's loud all over again. He walks swiftly across the platform, as if he's not even nervous. But that changes as soon as his eyes meet with mine. We stay like that for a few seconds, staring at one another and his cheeks turn a light shade of pink. He almost lost his focus until someone in the crowd coughs and he realizes he's on stage. As he welcomes everybody, my mind completely spaces off. Does he recognize me from last week? Did I accidentally make him nervous with my intense staring? Does he think I'm some kind of creep or stalker? Oh god I hope he doesn't think that. Also, why is my heart beating so fast?
I may be overthinking this right now because by the time he starts singing his first song, everything seems alright again. He's enjoying himself on stage and I'm captured by the music. I think that's what I like best, is that he looks so genuine with each song no matter how different they are. I must've been spacing out still because I was pulled back into reality by familiar words I heard. "Nobody to love"; he's singing this song again. For a sad song, he looks sort of at peace while singing it. Or maybe smiling through that frown he had on last week. I can't tell which it is. I want to know. I also want to talk to him. Like have an actual conversation. This guy is too interesting to not want to. Shit am I fanboying right now? Shit, I think I'm becoming a fanboy. A fanboy of Suga.