Nobody to Love

It's a Yes

According to plan, I watched his show again and sat in the front row. I swear he kept looking at me throughout his songs, especially when singing 'Nobody to Love'. He has me feeling confused, I'm not sure if what I'm liking is the way he flirts with me or just the fact that I'm getting hit on. As sad as this is going to sound, I haven't been in any romantic relationships in so long that I can't even tell if I like a person or like the fact that they potentially like me. I know that I do like Suga, but it's for his kindness, flirty personality, and music and possibly for romantic reasons too. I'm not against the idea of being into guys but I have no experience with it. All I know is that I'm incredibly confused but hopefully if I stick to the plan, I'll get an answer out of this.

"Suga! Hey!," I said walking up to him.
"Oh, hey! How did you like the show toni-"
"Suga, it's time to leave. I'll escort you to the car now," the bodyguard interrupts.
"Sir, please, can we just have a moment to chat."
"Fifteen minutes."
"Thanks, that'll be enough time to run and have a conversation. I'll be going now!," Suga says as he takes my hand and we run off again. I assume he's going to run off to be far enough from the bar and go no where in particular. Is this my chance? Should I offer to go to my apartment? Would he even decline if I asked? It's worth a shot.
"Hey, we can go back to my apartment again," I try to say while running and catching my breath. We stop running and he turns to me.
"Sure, if you want. I mean I only have fifteen minutes."
"I'll get us water like I promised, I'll even give your bodyguard a bottle too."

We walk up the stairs to my apartment and I open the door for us. I go to the kitchen to get us water and come back to the couch, settling in and getting comfortable.
"This is ridiculous," I say slightly laughing.
"What is?," he giggles back, and it's kind of adorable.
"We look like teenagers sneaking out of the house and running away from our parents."
"Hahaha... Yeah we kind of do," he says while scooting a little closer to me that the side of our legs touch.
"Like for Christ's sake we're in our twenties," it's funny I even say that if I'm getting flustered over our legs touching.
"Do I look like I'm in my twenties? I'm in my late twenties and I already feel like that's old."
"Same here, I haven't even gotten to my thirties and I feel like I should have cane in my hand wherever I go."
"Hahahaha! That'd be terrible! You wouldn't even be able to run around after bar sessions like we did last week.. and today." I don't know what's better; the fact that he laughed at my joke or how his voice sounded when he seductively said 'today'.
"Yeah, I guess we're not that old after all," I say when a car scares us from honking its horn. We stand up and walk to the door.
"We both know who that is. Well, I'll be on my way," he puts his hand on my shoulder and slowly strokes his hand down my arm, grabbing my hand to lift up to his lips and lightly kisses my knuckles, "let's do this again. I'll wait for you again when you see me." He says as the car honks again and we walk outside. I toss him another water bottle for his driver and close the door as they leave.
Being away from him, I get confused with my feelings and can't choose which side I'm on. Although when he's with me, the answer seems pretty obvious. Looking forward to another performance of his has to mean something. Wanting to talk with him and urging for some kind of intimate signs has to mean something. For now, my answer will be yes. I'll tell Kuroo yes, I'm interested to take more steps into this thing going on between Suga and I. Boy won't he be fucking ecstatic to hear about this tomorrow.