My Boy Bestfriend

Part 7

I walked back into Josh's house, shocked of course. I found a vase for the fresh smelling flowers Dan gave me basically telling me he still loves me. He knows I've moved on, he doesn't know I'm pregnant though. Great. "Hello darling" I hear a delicate voice say. It was Josh's mum. "Hey..." She looks at me and laughs "it's fine if you want to call me by my name, it's Sally" I laugh "Hey, Sally" Josh walks in with my bags and Sally walks out with all of her and her husbands stuff. "Mum where are you and dad going?" Josh says all confused. Their faces went pale, white as sheeps. "Honey, me and your dad got our own place, for good. This house is yours now, for you and Amanda." He looks so shocked! I went to grab his hand but he pushed me away. "Oh, ok. Cool" he gradually built up a nice smile. Glad he is smiling, I'm unsure. "But what will my mum say?" Sally takes a deep breath. "Amanda, honey, your mum won't be coming home. She has a permanent business trip" I still had the vase of flowers in my hand. I dropped it in utter shock. "OH MY GOSH!" Richard (Josh's dad) tutted and walked out "bye guys, see you soon" Sally said. "Uhh, bye mum and dad" josh said as they scurried off and slowly shut the door. As soon as that door closed I new there was no turning back. This is my life now, whether I like it or not. "I will clean up the mess Amanda, you just rest" aww I love him.

After he cleaned everything up he sat down and I got up pacing, walking back and forth panicking..."How josh. How am I going to have this baby knowing my mother won't be there as a grandma." Josh got my hand and dragged me onto the couch "we can live together alone! It won't be hard!" I guess he was right, we did just get our GCSE results so we can basically not go back to school, not like I can anyway being pregnant. I don't think it will be that hard finding a job, will it? "Yeah but there's bills to pay, cleaning, laundry. That's a lot for teenagers to handle.. Especially now were gonna be parents" he sits in silence for a while "it's ok. We can sort it! I'm sure my parents will give us money." I paused "yeah. I can also get my mum to send me some in the post I guess"

- ... 3 weeks later ... -

I woke up, got dressed and straight to hospital. Baby scan. "Josh do you want to come with me? I kinda need moral support" he laughed and hugged me "of course I wanna come, I need to make sure my family's ok!" As at the minute I'm an emotional wreck, so what he said kinda made me cry.

-at the hospital-

"Is the baby ok?" I ask the nurse fearfully. "The baby is fine, all healthy" I sigh and smile of relief. " would you like to know the sex of the baby?" The nurse asks looking overwhelmed. "Uhhh Josh? I don't mind...It's up to you" he smiled "yeah ok" he held my hand and kissed it. "Amanda your going to be having a baby girl!" I have never been so happy in my life! "Thank you so much nurse!" Josh helps me up, we get a picture of the baby scan and we leave with the biggest smiles and the most happiest mood ever.

-later on during the day-

I was so tired all I wanted to do was sleep. So I got off the couch and walked up the stairs to my room with an aching back and swollen feet.

*ring-ring. Ring-Ring*

My phone rang, it was my mother.

Me: Mother!

Mum: Darling! So glad you answered your phone, how are you coping?

Me: great, me and Josh are happy together. The baby is fine. Had my first scan today

Mum: am I having a granddaughter or grandson?

Me: granddaughter!

-we talk and talk-

Mum: ok darling stay safe, bye!

We ended up chatting for an hour. Even though I was tired, I still had the energy to speak to her.

-at midnight-

*BANG. BANG. BANG*

I instantly woke up rushing out of the room and straight down stairs! "Josh? What was that?" There was no reply I slowly crept up into the kitchen, all the lights were out. "Josh?" The lights went on and he was standing in front of a crib painted pink for the baby. "Suprise" I paused, cried a little. And ran up to him to kiss him. I have the best boyfriend in the world, regardless if he still likes Jenny I love him to pieces. "It's... It's just perfect" he smiled and hugged me "tomorrow I think we should go and get some stuff for the baby's room." He said. I can't believe how much he wanted this. "Me too" I replied.

-the next morning-

I woke up to Josh in another room on the phone.

"Whatever Jenny, I don't need this"

"FINE"

Josh walked back in the room and looked at me "oh your awake" .... "I am now, what's going on" he sighed. "Me and Jenny are over for good, I told her I want to be with you, Amanda" I didn't know whether to smile or sympathetically hug him. "Are you ok?" A tear fell from his eye "yeah, I have a family to care for and love" I smiled "I do honestly love you, despite what anyone says or thinks of us, this is our life" he kissed me "your so right, love you" he walked out the room, I got my diary from under my pillow and read through all my pages. I ripped them all out and burnt them in the roaring fire, slowly followed was the dead-diary itself. The past belongs in the past. Me and Jenny can't be friends if she can't accept the fact I need Josh around and we can't help who we fall in love with.

I went down stairs to see Josh, he was on a ladder cleaning the windows. "Josh! Get down I will do it!" He laughed "Amanda are you crazy? Your pregnant. Who knows what could happen?" There was a knock at the door I went to answer it. Dan showed up. "Hey..." He looked at me, ran his eyes up and down my body "your- your p-pr- what?" I guess Jenny told him... I sighed and let him in "yes dan, I'm pregnant. I'm having a girl, it's Josh's baby." He went outside in the garden to see Josh and kicked the ladder over. "JOSH!" I ran over barefoot in all the broken glass from the smashed window. I couldn't care less, "josh can you hear me?" Dan started panicking too, he almost looked surprised of what he's done! "DAN DONT JUST STAND THERE! HELP ME!" He dashed over and still looked terrified, Josh slowly started fluttering his eyes open "Josh are you ok?" He sat up I hugged him.

-later-

After we came back from the hospital getting him X-rayed and checked, luckily no broken bones! Well, we bought and fitted in a new window and then we talked and talked "If we're going to have a baby Amanda, we need to be safe. So we need to work together to do something" for the sake of our family, I couldn't put us at risk so I agreed. "Yes anything" we sat down and he helped me get the broken glass out of my bloody foot, he got me by the shoulders "we need to kill Dan" he blurted out his mouth from no where "Uhh excuse you?" I said not knowing wether I should be scared or shocked... Or confused. He was serious. "He almost killed you, he almost killed me. So let's get revenge and 'after-almost' kill him" I didn't know what to say but he was right, we could of died because of him and I dont want to put the baby under any risk. "Let's do it"

I know this is a wrong decision, there is a more simple way to avoid him...

What am I doing.