Roses From Book Pages

Part 1

I drag myself out of my bed and I'm greeted by the wonderful sight of my broken self.

"Oh you look fucking gorgeous." Says Doubt.

"Oh thanks you're not so pretty either, Doubt." Anxiety pipes up.

"You guys are dumb asses." I mutter to the two sort of ghost-like figures beside me.

"Oh so you just forget about me?" Confidence mutters.

"Oh shut up, you always bail when I need you." I mutter as I brush out my hair.

"Oh come on ViVi~" Confidence coos.

"Oh you come on! You bail so much. I swear you run off with our imagination the moment we walk into school! We. Need. You. Dumbass." Anxiety hisses at Confidence.
This is what it's like to be a schizophrenic, at least one like me. In addition to schizophrenia I have clinical depression and ADHD. But I never talk about it. I just suffer in silence. I put on my usual light makeup and throw on some more decent clothes paired with my signature leather jacket and glasses. From first glance I'm normal and pretty... but when you get to know me, I'm annoying, my mood swings are crazy, excitable, depressing, goofy, silly, geeky, nerdy, and did I say goofy? I can be a nice person to be around if you really stick around. I tend to be a slut too. All around I'm just random and unpredictable. I've got a lot of exes. My most recent ex is a boy by the name of Grant. He's adorable, glasses, goofy outlook, knee deep into the theatrics, has a gorgeous singing voice... he has a path. I'm happy when I see him talking it away with some other girl. I don't miss him one bit and I'm glad he finally got himself a girl as hoeish as he is.
"I hate Grant." Confidence says
"We all do." Doubt says.
"Yeah. We do. I have to go down stairs so everyone shut up or we'll get busted, ok?" I say to them.
"Ok." They all chime.
I walk downstairs and get myself coffee and something to eat. I at least skip only one meal a day now. I've gotten better and I'm not anorexic anymore.
"Hey Mari." Rose says, kissing my cheek.
Yep. I have a girlfriend. Deal with it. I live in a big house with all of my closest friends.
"Ewh PDA." Mani pipes up.
"Oh don't act like it's not adorable." Cierra says to her.
I kiss Rose's cheek and sweep her off her feet. I carry her around the kitchen like a prized possession.
"You guys are adorable." Estelle says.
"Why thank you." I say.
"Let me down you soggy cheesecake." Rose says.
"Your soggy cheesecake is putting you down." I say as I put her down.
I smile at her and I feel a warmth in my chest that I always do around her. She quiets my mind and warms my soul, my emotions are always difficult to go around but I know for a fact I'll never let her out of my life.
"Mari, you zoned out again." Rose says, waving a hand over my face.
"Oh jeez sorry what were you saying?" I say.
"You said: 'Maybe we should go out since I...'" Rose says
"Oh! That's right sorry hun. Since I have some time off." I say.
Rose smiles.
"That would be awesome! Let's go play in the snow!" Rose says, beaming at me.
"Be careful, that warm smile might melt all the snow away." I say.
"Cheesy bastard." Mani whispers, Cierra and Estelle smack her head at the same time.
"THEYRE CUTE STOP BEING A SOGGY POTATO." They scream at the same time.
"You two are starting to scare me." I say.