crimes.

him.

him;

      "Keep you in the dark.
       You know they all pretend."

              - The Foo Fighters, The Pretender

      "I'm falling for you day by day, Anna, and I still haven't figured out if you're a mistake or not." I stated, throwing my hands in the air.

      "And what if I am a mistake, Lucas, what do you do then?"

      "Well I'm not the one getting heartbroken in the end."

      "Neither am I."

      "Then let's just not do this then. It'll cause too much trouble."

      "So you don't wanna fight for it?" she muttered, looking down at her hands. She twirled a piece of string from her shirt around her finger as a tear fell from her cheek.

       In that moment, I was speechless. I was staring a girl who was falling to pieces right before my eyes, all because of me. I knew it was stupid to even try with her, I knew something like this would happen. It always does.

      "I understand." she looked up and her lips quivered as she bit her tongue. "And I guess you found out you're answer." Anna looked back down to her hands and watched as the string dropped from her hand. "You know, there's always been hints around me telling me that this, us, wouldn't work out. A flower stem snapped and it was beautiful. The man chasing us today, he was a warning. I just want you to know that I'll fight for us until these feelings vanish and I have a big feeling they never will." Anna stuffed her hands into her pants pockets and looked me straight in the eyes. "Bye Lucas."

      And with that she spun herself around. The squeak of her wet shoes echoed through the house. Whimpers from both of us left our bodies.

        What the hell am I doing?

        Go fight for her you idiot! 

        I ran down the hall where her shadow stretched and grabbed her waist. Spinning her around, I pulled her closer to me and pressed my lips on to hers. It was longer then the one before, and it had a lot more meaning to it.

    We both smiled as we pulled away, and boy let me tell you, I've never felt so proud of myself before. This definitely beat the time when I caught my first fish.

       "What made you change your mind?"

      "You."

✗ ✗ ✗

      I felt bad the early morning afterwards. She had stay long later then what she was supposed to. And I had no idea what I had getting us into. A relationship with a girl who's going to be as successful as ever in the future and a boy who does nothing but screw up. She was excited and happy, but I, on the other hand, was nervous and had never been in a 'relationship' before. I slept around, gave what the girls wanted and achieved what I needed, but with Anna, it was so strange.

     The kiss that happened yesterday was one thing I would never regret, to be honest. The way her finger tips lingered on the back of my neck, her lips sweet and soft. It was like I was being buried under a full moon, it watched me slowly fall into peace as it knew my deepest darkest secrets. To top it off, the moon was smiling, Anna. But I was still awfully confused on if I should be happy or not.

     And I can tell, by the way she has been around Matilda, that she wants to go to the dance that's tomorrow, you know, Spring Formal. The thing about that is I don't go to school dances, I smoke cigarettes and drink to forget about the hell hole.