IN TOO DEEP│minizerk

10

"I'm sorry I held your hand and uh... kissed your cheek, back there," Simon awkwardly says as he scratches the back of his neck while we stand on my front porch, centimeters from my door.

"Can I ask why you did?" I question. He sighs, sitting on the one step I had that lead from the sidewalk to the porch. He pats the spot beside him, so I sit down.

"I don't want anyone else getting hurt by JJ," Simon mumbles. I raise my eyebrows in concern, asking politely who JJ had previously hurt. "He told me he liked me," Simon starts. "He said I was his everything. He asked me out. He claimed he loved me. Then he got back with his ex and dumped me via text."

I was speechless. Simon and JJ had dated? What? When? And how were they still friends?

"We're only still friends because I'm a pussy and forgave him right away," he informs.

"Simon, I'm so-"

"Don't," he interrupts, squinting his eyes shut as his face scrunches up in agony. "I don't need your sympathy."

I stared at his side profile as he unclenched his face, placing his hands beside him on the cement. I mimicked him, my hand touching his on accident. I jumped and retracted my hand quickly.

But Simon lifts the hand I touched and tightly grabs hold of the one I held in my lap. He intertwines our fingers and gives me a soft smile. I curl my fingers along his hand as well, enjoying the feeling I was experiencing in this moment.

"I should go," he chuckles, releasing his grip. He stands and waves at me as he continues to walk off.

Now all I'm left with is my gay thoughts and the tingles fading away in my arm.

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Conversation With — Miniminter

hey simon :)

hi josh :)

how are you?

i'm alright, thanks. how are you?

i've been better

what's wrong?

just overthinking everything. shocked?

what are you up to today?

hanging out with a friend at mine, hbu?

probably gonna record some games.

oh, cool

can i come over after your friend leaves?

uh, sure :) something wrong?

i can't want to spend time with you?

no, you can

it's just... you've been pretty quiet for a few days

yeah, i've been overthinking as well

is it about us?

wdym?

never mind

is that what you've been overthinking about?

nononono, just was wondering

alright